LALA

2009-11-15T23:56:00.005+08:00

Dimanokoh boleh cari cinto
Cinto sngoti dale hiduk ambo
Lebih kure hok supo dio
Semogo temu denga dio

Ambo tokse nok janji nga dio (*)
Pasti sene hiduk denge ambo
Bia dio sendiri ye raso
betapo gilonyo ko dio

Ambo meme minak kok ore tino (**)
Tapi buke jenih boyo
tokleh dok cari tino sokmo
Ambo cinto hanyo kok dio

Ambo meme minak kok ore tino
Ore juruh supo dio
Ambo tokse doh pandelah rasonyo
Dok cari dan berjumpo
Cinto ambo ternyato ambo nok hanyalah dio

ulang (*)

(chorus)
Demo meme minak kok ore tino
Tapi buke jenih boyo
tokleh dok cari tino sokmo
Demo cinto hanyo kok ambo

ulang (**)

minak kok ore tino
minak kok dio
hanyalah dio

i friggin' understand this song ! *faint* this song was introduced to me by APEK ((: oh look apek , you're famous ! *laughs . i dont know what's so funny about this song . yeah , i mean it is funny but i find it nice too but apek say it's not . then i told him about my crush in kelantan which is my own nephew ! so weird ehs ? i got a crush in kelantan . i met him during my aunty's wedding . there goes apek , disturbing me saying that i have kelantan blood and

.:: slacker ::.:
{my name} oreh kelante!
LOL

i shouldnt have told him ! {angry face} like oh my god . that song is nice okay ? and whenever my nephew talks to me , i'll go like 'act as if i understand and just smile' *laughs ! when i dont even understand his 'kelantan' language . mum being an ass , i asked her which country he's from . she told me Kelantan . then now she told me Perak . smart mum ((: either way , i dont care ! kelantan accent ; aweesomeeeee ! wished i could talk like them , so stylo milo laaaa okay !

2009-11-14T23:27:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 13th BIRTHDAY , MARY ALISSA JACOB ! <3

look at that gorgeous little girl up there ? opps , maybe not 'little' anymore huh ! *laughs . she's MaryAlissa Jacob ! my dearest little sugary baby.

Mary , you're turning thirteen . thirteen means a teenager and no longer a twelve year old and below . life's gonna be a maze throughout your teenage year and there , i'm not lying . you'll be facing alot of challenges in life and you know that i know that you're a strong girl ! please know that i'm always here for you eventhough we've yet to meet . it's funny how at first , we argued alot and then now , we're close friends . always turn out that way, even the same for AlyyChaos . you know , your friends will be there to support you throughtout your hard times and even share happiness when you're having your glory moments . i hope everything you do in life would bring good to you and even to your health . i dont wanna see you get sick and destroy yourself in the future cause you know what's wrong and right , am i right ? this post might not be long but atleast i did wish you . causeee .. i wouldnt want to forget someone's special day ((: now , maintain that gorgeous look of yours and lastly , a happy .. no , a very great birthday to you !

takecare of yourself alright ? love you ! <3

oh and by the way , my baby wished you 'Happy Birthday' too . hehe (x

2009-11-14T16:37:00.008+08:00

yesterday was {insert happy expression} !

met ahfat at toa payoh interchange at 12+ in the morning . he's 7 minutes late as usual and i told him ' i dont know how fat you are but i assume you are really fat cause you're slowwww .. '. i swear i didnt sleep , but i was feeling kinda fresh . anyway , i pranked wiwi that i saw {insert a weird name here} and that i talked to him and laughed and all when i actually saw someone else. well , she didnt believe it at first but i pretty much made it sound realistic . you should see how jealous she gets . haha , stupid bitch *tongue out .

i had tons of fun with ahfat , wiwi and azman yesterday in school . yes , we went to school when we shouldnt be going there for no specific reason . it was raining , so we decided to stay a little bit longer . crackers , chewing gums , chocolate bar , two packets of milo . i love my mother tongue teacher and dm ! so then , we decided to head out of school and walk to novena . in between, we stopped in the parade square and yes , it's raining . we played the rain . took videos of our pathetic moments . we dance like we dont know how to dance . we dance like freaks . i made fun of techtoniks , shuffles and jumpstyles . damn , i'm sorry ! *laughs .

in novena , there was this so called 'red carpet' . a very long one indeed . then wiwi and myself waves our hand and walk along the carpet . ahfat joined in afterwards . there was so many people and i couldnt believe that we were actually doing that infront of them . *laughs .

sorry if the pictures look 'emo-ish' . we were just playing around with the camera and i was just playing around with my gorgeous hair . *laughs . alright , here's the video dance . HAHA !

2009-11-13T20:02:00.005+08:00

easier said . i'll do a proper singing next time . it's freaking funny on how when you keep on listening to the videos and then you thought ''oh god, hilarious . if i'm serious , i can do better than that .'' and for that , i'll prove to you that i can okay ? but then , not now ah . tsk ! this time , i'll record it during the afternoon so i dont have to lower down my voice and whisper just to not wake anyone up . *laughs . afternoon it is ! no more morning melodies . it will just hurt the ones around . imagine , you . effin' early in the morning with a dry throat . then , you sing . corrupted sia . haha ! kay bye !

how i wish i can play the guitar but i'm not too keen to learn .
it would sound better though if i do know how to play .
aha , fuck you LALA !

2009-11-13T08:52:00.008+08:00

DO NOT LISTEN !

warning : you will go deaf . *laughs .

so it's early in the morning . i've got nothing better to do since i'm alone in the living room just now . currently , no . everyone's awake . well , except for my parents . pigs !yadayadayada , i can continue blabbering shits . so let's get straight to the point .

i decided to sing . haha ! seriously, i was just having mega fun ! + i wasnt really serious -.-' i laughed after listening to myself and yeah , just upload for some laughters . i wanna share my pathetic moments too laaaa . forgive me ): *kneel down*

- One Time by Justion Bieber . (for fun)

- Come home by Eyes Set To Kill . (for fun)

- Down by Jay sean . (unfortunately , there's major interruption)

- The End by Silverstein . (fooling around)

don't blame me if you're unable to hear my voice because it's early in the morning . common sense okay ? i dont wanna shout in the early morning unless you're like my #2 brother . mulut minta kena tape ! early in the morning already shout like one {insert vulgar} . inside my heart i was like 'what the fuck ?' but i dont care . yang malu bukan aku , kan ? i'm so sorry on behalf of my brother . *laughs . tidak perlu sey ! he spoiled everything , siak ah aku . so jyeah , i dont think my voice is effin' nice eventhough i did praise myself sometimes . *laughs . that was on purpose ah , i just wanna see how others react . then again , two . no , four friends told me my singing voice nice , in reality. i dont know ehs ? no comment . used to kena {insert vulgar} from my siblings for singing out loud . well , atleast now not anymore . they're jealous ehs ? what to do . *laughs . okay faking . not nice , dont hear kays ? it was just for fun . not serious anyway . i still can laugh half way and smile widely while i was singing the songs above . okay , let's go ! i wanna make my #2 brother embarrased and maybe myself too . ehs , i dont care ? how ? tsk . i didnt have the guts to sing infront of my friends . never . during secondary one i did , infront of ex- bestfriend - danish , azman , haikal and khairul . then , i stopped and i dont have a very good reason why . now , hear ! *smile widely* psst : my brothers are effin' gooooooooooood at screamos . well , except for little brother . that one hakprak ! * evil laugh * prepare for ear plucks ! and pigs can fly if i got a better singing voice . LOL !

PLEASE LEAVE ME A TAG . I WANT TO KNOW HOW TERRIBLE ME AND MY BROTHERS ARE ! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! yes , we realise we corrupt every single song . *laughs harder . oh my god , it's so fun !

2009-11-13T03:19:00.018+08:00

(this picture pretty much explain this post)

i was in the living room . watching my favourite show and was on my notebook ..

#2 brother : *laughs . kau dah tengok blog sham ?
(have you look at sham's blog ?)

yours truly : belum . asal ?
(not yet . why ?)

#2 brother : kau pergi tengok . kau tunjuk abang sekali .
(take a look and show big brother as well)

so , i went to check it out and what i saw really make me so (when i say so , i really mean so) speeeeeeeeeeeeeeeechless .. until now , as i'm typing this shit out .

this is what he wrote :

I hate girls who I date.
They'll always accuse me of dating another girl.
If you don't trust me so much. Then fuck off.
I don't need you.
Okay Saedah?

She thinks I'm dating this girl call Lala on tagboard.
I don't even fucking know her for fuck sake.
And Q guess what?
She thinks I'm flirting with you too.
Lawls. It's so hard for me to love someone.
They'll accuse me of doing things behind my back everytime.

see ? yes ! precisely .. i was so taken aback . of course i know he's referring to me because i'm the only LALA on his tagboard . gee , for fuck sake ! please ask that girl to get her brain fixed , will you ? i'm Ayul Vanquish's and Hann Venom's younger sister , excuse me . you saw me before . you came to our house before . you had dinner with us before . you were the one who witnessed me and my siblings argue . you've been in our family car before . (okay , that's too much .) i was masai at that point of time and i couldnt be bothered about your presence . aha . no , i'm not mad at you , sham . it's that girl ! what's her name ? saedah ? aha . ask her to stop making a fool outta herself kay ? FUCK LAH !

thank you very much ayes. (welcome .) saedah , if you're reading this . stop hurting sham . he has got a bloody god damn feeling too and i dont think you deserve a nice guy like him . convincing enough ? no ? then make sure you go get a life . start appreciating the ones around you and stop ( i mean it ! ) , stop all this accusation . i'm sure sham can live without you . obviously , he can . oh my god , i sound so rude . opps , sorry then ! not . i dont wanna find trouble okay ? i hate it when my name and myself got involved in this kind of matter . you cant blame me . i did nothing . you were dumb , as in really dumb . how stupid can you be ? (very) did you go to school ? (maybe not) didnt anyone taught you any manners ? (dont think so) do you know how to appreciate the ones around you ? (no) okay , let's not drag . fuck you really hard okay ? i may not be able to do so cause i dont have a dick but i'm willing to stuff a cucumber inside your freaking pussy (:

you're an imbecile kid with a brain full of rectums and the reason why you're accusing is because you're full of shits .

bye .

2009-11-12T19:21:00.005+08:00

I AGREE WITH ALY CHAOS ! 100% .

i mean , c'mon ah . tindek - tindek mane main zaman ? cock up brains lah . even she herself as a 13 year old , she's much more smarter than [insert name(s)] , who thinks that they are effin damn smart . haiyamak , *applause* dont berbual world eh ? Aly Chaos has got a point . you guys better stop acting like some big fucks to know this kind of things . only people with a proper brain and not as senget as yours know all this . i did came across a few blogs though and i thought 'what the fxck is this ? berbual merepek sia . tindik takde zaman . ' sadly , i cant be bothered to post about it until i read Aly's blog. anyway , no offence . if you feel offended , MKPL (: i dont care . i dont think Aly Chaos would care either .

ALY CHAOS wrote this in her blog :

I just wanna clarify some shit I came across while bloghopping.
No offense, but it seems like you guys are unable to converse in English orrr you guys rather speak Malay. Either way is fine. I'm gonna use both languages to talk, anyways.

In the first fucking place, tindek-tindek ni smue tkde zaman-zaman ahh eyh.
Piercings are merely BODY ART. FOR FUCK'S SAKE. ITS BODY ART.
I myself have piercings, and I did it 'cause I wanted to, 'cause I liked it.
Same goes to the other people who have piercings.
Some people may think that its cool, thus they choose to do it for themselves.
Its fine to think that piercings is cool or whatever, its not wrong.
But now, you guys said that "ZAMAN TINDEK-TINDEK DAH OVER."
From what I know, your age is the same as mine, or perhaps older by a year or so.
Asal bbl world ni?
Have you ever in your fucking life, seen a point of time, where every teenager gets a piercing?
Mcm trend gytu ah kirekan.
Come on laa, think twice before speaking, 'cause you have no points to back up what you said.
You guys are on the losing edge, come onnnnnn people.

I'm not gonna point out any names, 'cause honestly I don't know who the fuck they are, I just went to their blogs, but I didn't take note of their identity.
Oh, and I don't care if you disagree with what I just said.
'Cause its c o m m o n s e n s e .

2009-11-12T18:47:00.005+08:00

*laughs.

I LOOK FXCKING WEIRD !

i suggested this pose .

okay , dont laugh lah .

cruel people . pffts .

and i got the idea of pincing fatzxkazoid's fats ,

right after it snaps .

then it turns out this way ,

cool or what ayes !

sorry ahfatxz .

oh , dont mind me .

i was pulling ahfatzx's hair .

OH MY GOD ! you know what ? now i've forgotten what to write , -.-'
oh wait , i love my hair . i want go for a haircut but i'm not sure which hairstyle should i go get . nono , i wanna stay long-lengthed . just a little bit of trimming . i'm getting sick of my current one . i want hair like Nurul Zany Sonar ! ):

you know ? i was taken aback . my baby got peminat ! *shuwit* passerby or what ? cool bodoh ! im'ma auction him in ebay . then you can buy him ayes. cause you want him , must get through me first. then i sell kays ? now i'm pressuring myself on how much i should sell him . ayes , so cruel ah me . tsk .

* laughs . hahahahaha ! oh no no , you dont laugh . let me laugh . ghee , you're not even laughing . what so funny ?

OI ! see that shirt above ? ALESANA YOU KNOW ! not ALY-SANA . no , cause she's not famous . *laughs , sorry Aly Chaos . be jealous . eleh , not original ! stop it sia LALA .

_l_ DAH , DIAM !

2009-11-11T23:55:00.004+08:00

wake up call from bestfriend , wiwi was on the phone .

showered , got myself ready .

talked with bestfriend on the phone , chaotic ehs .

met wiwi , azman , fatzx and hafizah at United Square MacDonalds .

we went whampoa . met hrera , nelly and yana (?).

those primary school kids .

taught them dance steps for their audition .

camwhored till wiwi's camera battery flat .

saw boyfriend , talked to him .

his friends kacau , yadayadayada ..

still couldnt believe what i heard just now .

pleased that he's treating me like one even to outsiders .

it's making our pretendence much more realistic .

i dont care .

i love wiwi (:

below , hrera and crew dancing . it's kinda dark , so jyeah . effin' cute you know ! dont bother about the middle kid , she's kinda slow . no offence uh wiwi . *laughs. i'll post a clearer one soon since we've yet to finish the steps . meeting again tomorrow !

2009-11-10T20:47:00.004+08:00

(click to enlarge)

my friend's account has been 'hacked' by Wan Sanchi . i dont know who's that guy ! suspect kuat her boyfriend but WanSanchi ? not her boyfriend's name ehs . kays i dont care . this guy find fault with me . funny you know ! so i took it easy and sort things out nicely -.-'

`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
haloooooooooooooooos
ccb,,,reply luqh
LALA D'sergio . your angel in the night .:
lol
ape cite
◦`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
cita psl pukimak kaw
LALA D'sergio . your angel in the night .:
kays
ape de ?
◦`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
kaw mantat laki aku pe
LALA D'sergio . your angel in the night .:
ohh
gitu .
abeh ? 0.o
◦`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
abehhh ku nak puukul kaw
LALA D'sergio . your angel in the night .:
ohh .
cari aku uh .
(:
bishan st 12
aku tawu kau bukan mimi .
ahaha
◦`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
aku mimi la
LALA D'sergio . your angel in the night .:
-.-' sap sudah .
mimi tak bobal gitu nan aku .
haha .
beh senyap ? kay best .
◦`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
beesssst uhhh
LALA D'sergio . your angel in the night .:
kays . haha .
◦`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
huhu
LALA D'sergio . your angel in the night .:
nak tawu kau sape leh ?
◦`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
boleeeeey
nik wak sanchi
LALA D'sergio . your angel in the night .:
kau sape nan mimi ?
0.o
◦`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
takda oraaaang
get her password from myrul.
LALA D'sergio . your angel in the night .:
myrul sape pulak ?
◦`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
myruuul bishaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan
LALA D'sergio . your angel in the night .:
name penuh ?
◦`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
myrulsham
LALA D'sergio . your angel in the night .:
then kau buat ape nan mimi peh account ? 0.o
◦`·._.·мііміізз² οиε & οиLіі(::
sajasaja
hehehehehe

then , end from the picture above . sungguh kurang ajar (:

kan dah cakap , aku thick skinned . ada orang tidak percaya kan !

2009-11-10T18:22:00.007+08:00

okay , let's see . i've been rotting at home these past few weeks . i miss going to school . i miss kakigereks krew alot . i was hoping for an outing or two but i guess , next month ayes . since most of them are so busy now , that includes me . i dont know what makes me busy even though i dont look like i am . haha , kay shut up . i'll organise an outing soon aits , just wait .

http://www.bytches-story.blogspot.com/

i dont know who the owner is but her/his post seems interesting . she/he wrote about mats and minahs and criticise them ? hah , i dont know ehs . whatever the owner has got to say , you can't totally disagree with . i mean , yeah you can for those whose names and pictures are up there but you can't simply deny that that blog is super interesting . sometimes i wonder who might the owner be , mystery uh kan . i guess starting from today , i'll be your daily reader . to the owner , tag me if you come across my blog ayes . sorry to those humans that the owner post about but hey , i support that blog . it's hilarious . that blog , is up in my top list because i'm entertained by what he/she has got to post about . you're awesome uh ! *laughs .

and i just got to know , my perangai macam S-I-A-L . thanks baby . he made me realise , *laughs . relax sudah ! haha . he and his takraw and his mat jiwangs . tidak sabar wei nak dengar lagu - lagu baru LuckySeven especially his voice . aduh , jatuh girl ! kays , diam . *laughs . mak kau peh laki ehs LALA !

ELMELDA arfaitx ! salon ? doggy uh kau . sajak uh tu * evil laughs . pape picit ayes ! sumpah aku nak trim . dah macam hutan sia . hahaha ! ELMELDA SIAL ! hahahahaha , shush !

MAK AKU IRRITATING NAK MAMPOS !

2009-11-09T08:58:00.009+08:00

HELLO MISTER , YOU'RE MAKING ME JEALOUS ! ):
i dont know why , i'll tell you once i've figured it out .
and i love your voice and the way you smile!
there ! two compliments . now don't be angry at me .
*laughs*

psst , sorry for stealing your picture . forgive me eh ? haha !

http://fhlowmusique.blogspot.com ( click! )

spam him . FAKE ! tag him and make him famous .
see LUQMAN , must be thankful even though you don't know me and i don't know you .
*laughs*

if you're reading this , tag me ayes mister !

2009-11-09T07:19:00.002+08:00

conversation with pakcik in the early morning .

uncle : yang kau kenape ? dengan 'computer' kau . (referring to notebook)
yours truly : eh , suke ati ah . hah !
uncle : sape punyer ?
yours truly : ayah
uncle : yang lagi satu ?
yours truly : ibu simpan
uncle : oh . due-due same ? macam same jeq .
yours truly : tak ah ! oh ah same . same size tapi brand lain uh .
uncle : ah ah *mocking *
yours truly : tapi ni NOTEBOOK gundu!
pakcik : ah ape ? facebook ?
yours truly : NOTEBOOK laaaa -.-'
pakcik : ah ape ? lagi sekali .
yours truly : eh . kau peh pasal ah *laughs .
pakcik : *laughs .

went out of the house

pakcik : eh . alamak. lupe kunci !
yours truly : eh , dah . dah lupe dah. takmo balik terus .
pakcik : *laughs

2009-11-09T05:28:00.002+08:00

aha , i'm still awake ! *laughs . what is there to be proud of ? tsk .

anyway , currently watching 'Hantu Raya' at Astro Ria . the ustad handsome sia ! hehe . shush ! handsome macam baby aku ehs . really , that ustad somehow look like baby . kays , i dont care . i want to solat ah , macam cool gitu . haha , kays . tak menjadi . ingat eh korang , jangan simpan makluk-makluk halus !

baby , i cannot sleep . how ? next time you dont sleep first okay . hehe .

' macam - macam aznil ' so hilarious .

Aznil : ape maksudnya sejuk hati?
Kid : maksud de , hati de sejuk
Aznil : *laughs. macam mane tu boleh sejuk ?
Kid : pasal de makan ice .

the childrens so cute ehs . macam aku . haha! perasan . kays , i'm done here .

tatatititutu .

2009-11-09T03:08:00.007+08:00

i going crazy you stupid pie hole fxck la cibai dog arseholle ababkabdkbsadarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ! ba vwdjbkwq kjbdclkjbsacdlkgclgwlgdalgbsacldgbjacbdcb jb aku bingit tkawr asal auh. pandait2 krn gpahm2 ni post eh .a hanbdad . aku tktaw asala. akau macma nak pekik jeqqq taauuu ! i love jmyy life snsdalknlknacd. i sdon nahahah askwkeka ala kau ni . macam sialajaba . hadhadh . MAKKKKKKKKKK KAUUUUUUUUUUUUUU PUNYERR LAKIII LAAAAAAA SIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAL !! AKU MCM NAKKKKKKKKK PEKIK !!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH . . BIKIN AKU PANAS. ASYIK PIKIRAN JERQ . FXCK YOU! FXCK YOU REALLY HARD ! EH , PLEASE UHHHH SIAALLLL ! PERANGAI JGN SIAL . HAHAHA . AKU GILER . HAHAHAHAA . SIALAN .

2009-11-09T02:12:00.008+08:00

simple .

i dont think i wanna take things seriously . i'm not too sure about my own feeling . were you really serious or just fooling around ? it keeps haunting me . your words , they're just hard to believe in . i dont know what's wrong . do you actually mean what you say ? or are you just taking advantage of me ? look how sweet you are , how irresistible . i can no longer bare to lose you , you know that yourself . please , i plead . don't ever leave me . at least not now or better never . i really need you by my side and never did i wanna make you look like a fool because to me , you're already a part of my life . i hope you're not a fraud , i hope you're not lying . i hope everything isnt a lie , a biggest lie . promise me , you'll keep your promise . promise me , you wouldnt hurt me . promise me , you'll tell me the truth . promise me , you'll always be here for me . tell me , you WILL definitely be here for me even though we're distance away . i want to meet you badly . not now , next year eh . can can, pretty please ? >.<

though i'm not crushing on anyone , it's because you've captured my heart . i'm not crushing on you because i've loved you . i've love you from the start and never will i stop doing so . i promise .

2009-11-08T22:48:00.004+08:00

to kill time . this is what i did . *look up* and now i'm eating biscuits while texting baby and weewee or what . i'm bullying zieerah now . take that , FAT GIRL ! *evil laughs .

i know how it feels like to lose a bestfriend .

2009-11-08T20:02:00.007+08:00

tiupan angin yang indah bagaikan cinta
yang kian aku merasa , mengalaminya
seindah cinta kita , tidak dapat diubah
kerna tanpa mu, memang aku tak bisa

my malay sucks ? i dont know eh .
because i'm doing this out of random .
i'm still waiting for baby to end takraw .
few more hours to go , i must endure .

cause baby , what's worth having ,
sure enough worth fighting for .

tadididadididadidida ..

2009-11-07T18:00:00.002+08:00

(click to enlarge)

2009-11-07T16:14:00.005+08:00

Happy 21th Birthday , HaNn VeNoM !

my blood brother

yes , you may be the biggest asshole brother , laziest pig , irritating fucker and selfish idiot in the house but i'll always love you . i know you're enjoying your life right now , but please dont make it to the extend because you're old enough to start your life with a proper job . you can enjoy life while thinking about what you're gonna do for your future . our family is having quite a hard time now , yet all you do is rot at home . whatever it is , i hope by today you'll start realising . dont keep on thinking about money when you're not earning them yourself . our parents are depending on you and #2 brother now . anyway , thanks ever so much for bringing the family so much laughters together with #2 brother . eventhough sometimes you're nice to me , i know what's your motive . you're nice because you want something . haha , i've been observing . you're fucking selfish , you know ? heh , because we let you lend our stuffs but for you , the other way round is never possible . let it be , i'll never be selfish towards my own siblings . you see , i've been keeping foods and stuffs for you guys because i'm not the type of person who only cares about herself . i bet you are not that type too right ? somehow i got to know that you're the boyfriend material . since you're single , enjoy okay ? flirt as much as you can ! haha . so as for today , it's your special day , you're gonna be surprise at what our family gonna buy for you . once again , happy birthday to you (:

psst , i'm a bitch ! *wink .

oh , ayah just reminded me to write this down .
'KERJA LAH BANG !' haha *inside joke*

2009-11-06T21:34:00.007+08:00

(click to enlarge) - in sequence, i think .
from below to the top .

YOHA ,

*laughs* . me and babygirl melda mocked the way 'minahrep' talk .
LOL ! we fanatic ? ew , susah telan air liur !
sorry but we aint got that minahrep skills .
oh , maybe melda does ? *laughs !
we're having fun , so yeah .
once again , NOT FANATIC .
and whoever's name mentioned there , no offence .

hakim , '' oh ! so now you're calling me black ?! ''
i miss you and your english slangs D=
2 more months to go and i can see you again !
teeeeheeeeeee .

2009-11-06T17:05:00.009+08:00

above , that's Wawan Tercinta . used to be known as Wawan WackyCats . though i prefer the previous one . anyway, i dont know why i miss him. it has been a long time since we last met and i guess , it was over months ago . doubt that he's still in contact with my brother eventhough they're best of friends . heys , if you're reading this . come by our house when you're free yeah ? to be precise , he's like a family to me . haha , yeah . another older brother , but sadly , he disliked to be called abang because he said he'll look old . geees ! whatever it is , orang disini tidak akan melupakan orang disana ! oh yeah, by the look of his msn personal message , he's inebriated with LOVE . told you , being in love isnt cool . gosh , i swear Wawan WackyCats is such an enjoyable person to be with . he's hilarious , really .

re-edited ,

i've just asked my brother whether they're still in contact and he said 'three of us' (include Syukor) and then the handsign <> . which means , they've walked different paths and lead their own lifes . pffts ! all the best peepos .

Wawan's good deed will always be remembered . ambil yang jernih , buang yang keruh ! too bad , i wasnt close to Syukor . haha (:

2009-11-06T16:57:00.004+08:00

what a pathetic guy . keeps bugging me and friends , jees . maryalissa , our ex ? LOL ! i wouldnt wanna consider him that . anyway, thanks #3 bestfriend for backing up . ILY ! <3

2009-11-06T10:49:00.003+08:00

apek says he misses me . i miss him too !
sorry apek , for not replying your text yesterday .
heh . aku tertidur ! muahahahaha . shush !
alright , apek texted me already . confirm baru bangun ? jees .

yes , melda ! be jealous . *tongue out*

2009-11-05T04:54:00.004+08:00

NURUL AMEERA BINTE HAMZAH

HOE ZHI JIA

TAKE NOTE .

*laughs .* those two are my upcoming victim for 2-3 years . see , look how pretty they are ! too pretty until they wanna grab and snap people's picture without permission right ? _l_ . i bet ahfat's gonna laugh . i cant wait for next year ! same class with Apek , Dino , Weewee or what , Ahfatzxskazoid , Hafizah Gayle and Deywee ! still , i'll have to concentrate for the sake of promoting to secondary four , good results and someone (:

too bad , #1 bestfriend was posted to a better class than i am . tsk ! all the best , darla (:

2009-11-05T04:19:00.005+08:00

2N1's Last Outing : Barbeque .

went with #1 bestfriend and #2 bestfriend . oh yes, it's was pretty tiring yet quite enjoyable . only me and bestfriends helped out with the 'barbequing' while others .. i've got nothing against them . we ate less and cook more. the boys kept on bugging me about the chickens . gees ! somehow some of us argued , just because of the food . haha ! just pushing one another , that's all . nothing serious though . most of the boys dyed their hair ayes . okay fxck , shut up . i wanna highlight my hair blonde because 2nd brother told me he'll do it for me , but someone told me not to because i'll look like a minahrep later on which i totally agree with . haha ! shush . so it rained after we've done packing and was getting ready to go home . classmates just brisked walk in the rain . laughs , shouts and almost everything can be heard . i swear , bestfriends and myself did the cutest thing . we held each other hands , stood in a row and walked slowly under the rain . there , we began to shout randomly. haha ! i love how being with them can bring such enjoyment and so much laughters . so to be specific , we're all wet including my classmates. wore the headband , ah thanks eh #1 bestfriend . he told me i looked like a minahrep and i go like 'ZzZzZzZz !' . i took some pictures of Calvin'Kor , i dont know why . i just like to mock ahbengs like him . haha ! Kor , reading this ? sorry hor , took your picture without permission . see , dont ever sit beside me in the bus and then end up , snoring . *laughs.* dangerous woi . still , i'm waiting for Adam to call me to discuss about the next year batch - Secondary One orientation camp . i'm excited ! haha . but i dislike doing on CCAs . kays , too much info LALA . enjoy !

2009-11-01T16:54:00.006+08:00

here goes nothing .

i've drowned deep into the black hole .
i've realized and know i was foolish then and now.
to dream in my own world , my own fantasy .
not bothering about what other's think and talk about .
thinking that things would be as wonderful .
as wonderful as what i thought before .
turn out unexpected and i started to realised .
i was stupid , stupid to dream that way .
maybe it's just fate , or just this strange feeling .
trying to conquer me , bring me down .
i feel bad , lying to my own heart .

here's another vampire ,
hunting for a different blood .
the blood which others too are hunting .
others who ? i dont know , let them be .
why didnt i realise ? the moon has been flashing so bright .
trying to tell me it's time to stop .
realise that everything will turn out wrongly .
knowing that the same blood and scent we're hunting ,
could bring me to another different world .
a world where vampires and humans engage .
the devils been laughing so hard ,
together with the angels .
because the moon is trying to get close to a star,
the star which the moon find it bright and special .
i find it meaningless now .
as the star is slowly trying to drift apart ,
not wanting the moon to notice .
vampirelady lay there, looking up to the sky .
wondering how to cover up her sadness .
her sorrows behind her fake smiles .
hoping that the blood she's been hunting wouldnt figure out .
hoping that the blood would somehow fall for her .
hoping that the blood would realise something .
something that would bring them together ,
to where happiness lives .
wishes to not look back , not regret .
it's the blood she's been longing for all these while.
and all she could do now is settle down,
waiting for the right time to come , to yearn for a new moon
for her , she'll start a new chapter .
to hunt for that very same blood again ,
without getting anyone in her way .
even if she fails , she hopes the blood figured out something .
she will always be there for him .

THE BLOOD ,
9m 19o18r25 . i 20i14k i13 7oi14g 20o 20h5 23ro14g 4ir53ti15n .
16l51s5 w19t fo18 20h5 14e23 13o15n .

with love ,
LALA D'sergio .

2009-11-01T03:20:00.015+08:00

specially for Senior,

Khairul Nizam Bin Zakaria - Cicak .

i totally agree with you . sorry cause it took me a long time to notice . yes , you and Bruno does look alike except that he's a little bit mental and you're the innocent one . pffts . well, i had to say it . i bet Bruno's much better than you . haha ! see , he's so retarded and you're not . retarded people are cool , you know ! so stop pro-claiming yourself . you're not HOT ! haha . you're graduating this year since you're taking Os now . well , good for you . as your junior , i hope things will go well for you in the future and may you last long with dearest Suriyana . everyone knows you're the arrogant one in school . you're not to be blamed . it's just who you are , atleast you did talk to me . be it in msn or in school . much or less , you still talk . good luck for Os though ! hopefully , Suriyana doesnt think otherwise about this post . my intentions are good (:

somehow , today i just thought of my seniors and them , graduating . suddenly, i flashed back to where when Cicak talked to me about Bruno . that was when ? during our jalan raya outing . so long time ago sia .

the conversation goes like this .

senior : who's that ? (referring to my handphone screensaver)

yours truly : uh ? oh . nothing .

senior : i thought Bruno . you know Bruno ?

yours truly : huh ? Bruno ? no , why ?

senior : because people say i look like Bruno .

yours truly : really ? i dont even know who's Bruno . celebrity or something ?

senior : yeah . later when you're at home , googled 'Bruno' and then you tell me (:

yours truly : okaaaaaaaay . but Bruno what ? i mean , his long name ?

senior : just type Bruno , then you'll get it .

yours truly : okaaaaaaay .

i swear , i'm gonna miss shouting 'HELLOs' to my sec4s Normal Tech and Express and sec5s seniors. especially to abang Qamarul , abang Saufi , abang Nizam, dearest Ali and others .. time flies so fast uh . i'm gonna miss them for sure , that is if they graduate . well , hopefully they will . ayes , eventhough they're arrogant and can be quite cruel at times towards my friends, they'll always be the best . i dont wish to lost contact with anyone of them . ohyeah , i can get through Qamarul through Jingwen . Saufi through ex boyfriend . Nizam through Suriyana . Ali through idk ? hmmms . Ali has been a great help in my current situation eventhough he's quite unsure about it , he still did his best . thanks to Qamarul and Saufi . they kept my secrets and helped me alot ! i dont know how to repay them , really . for now , all i can do is cherish them , hah . who knows , in a year time when i bump into either one of them , i'll treat him ciggies ! haha . and yeah. Seri , Taufiq , Naylia, Jia ru , Izan , Fattah , Reani and Syazni , you guys wont be forgotten . others , i think i've forgotten you or something . sorr - ehh (:

GOOD BYE SENIORS ! wo ai ni .

2009-10-31T15:28:00.004+08:00

and yes , i got to know Mohan is actually superb friendly , no kiddin' . so is Huiza (sp?) also known as Calvin . aha , yesterday after their field trip , Mohan came to me and asked me what's up . i told him to meet me after teacher let him off . soon after , he came and we talked . actually, i thought he probably wouldnt bother to look for me but i was wrong . aha , kay best . while talking to Mohan , Huiza was just standing there . So i put Huiza inside the conversation . soon after , Melda joined us . you dont wanna know what we talked about anyway . haha ! Mohan laughed when i told him something , i bet he's disgusted or something ? uh , sorry ayes ! haha . Huiza just smiled and giggled, tsk . so they went off with their group of friends . at the same time , my friends decided to went off as well . while going down , Melda saw Mohan and Huiza and his friends . decided to wait for them and then , we went down together . Melda and me talked to Mohan and Huiza again ! their friends was like laughing and smiling at what we've got to say . haha ! then myself , Melda , Mohan , Huiza joked around . ''call me okay?'' ''text me , i'll sure reply.'' ''i text you , make sure you reply !'' haha , what the hell sia ! okayokay , so we went on different direction . we bid goodbye to each other and smiled . really , they're fun ! sadly , Melda and me forgotten to take a picture with Mohan and friends . garhh , next time then .

2009-10-30T21:17:00.004+08:00

4th post .

so i've decided to fool around with the camera . photography ? i dont know . bestfriend was into it as well (:

2009-10-30T19:35:00.008+08:00

LAST DAY OF SCHOOL !
had school field trip to Science Centre, watched BEARS at the Omnix Theatre and took some pictures with schoolmates. not much fun though . and yes , i love my junior HAIQAL eventhough i dislike him . haha ! (18th picture) gosh , i'm gonna miss 2n1 . tsk . oh and MELDA , i look much more cuter with Haiqal than you . *tongues out*

2009-10-30T18:56:00.007+08:00

skipped school on Wednesday , just to attend to adik's Sports Day . few things happened . adik's friends was super friendly and .. NOISY ! yet they're supportive . oh , there's something wrong with adik's hamspring (sp?) while he was running the 4 x 200m, so he stopped half way and dropped . blablabla , move on . brothers came soon after they're done with work and tsk , they looked so 'MASAI' . here's some pictures that are taken that day.

OHYA ! i saw Firman . he's getting darker (no offence) . haha . eh , i bet Najwa and Nazirah gonna be jealous . Mary too . *tongues out* hahahaha .

2009-10-27T19:54:00.020+08:00

seems like a dead blog to me , idc uh . school was a blast , no kidding . i got into 3n3 , i'm proud ! well, i should be eventhough i was aiming for 3n2 but , nahh no hope . failed maths and science , what do you expect ? miracle to happen ? pffts , fat hope . uh huh , every D'DK got into 3n3 except for dearest bestfriend . it was for his own good uh , without us . he can concentrate better(: but i'll sure miss gossiping and making fun of our surroundings, garh . that sucks . well now , atleast i've got ahfat , wiwi and hafizah to gossip with . *evil laughs* melda , we'll be there for you . no worries aits . KAKAK ada disini ! LOL . fake ! got to know 'AHMAD' retained and would be in 3n3 again , eww much ? it's alright , we'll endure . this time, i won't keep quiet okay . berani langgar, berani tanggung . YES ? haha . macam minahrep pula , tsk . i was acting very 'bimboic' in school today . aha , most prolly this week i would act like one . i like to stare at this ahbeng in school , so funny uh that guy . i'll go like 'eh, ni kpkb uh ?!' 'eh , ni beisong ah ?!' and he'll go like 'eh! what!' and we would stare at each other then laugh . haha , asshole .

ohh, bestfriend was talking to Soleha about the school outing and i interfered . LOL !

bestfriend : eh , where are we going ? science centre or movie ?
soleha : science centre uh .
yours truly : who wanna go science centre ! you go alone uh . *fuckface*
soleha : kay uh ! come let's go, i go alone .
yours truly : eh , what's the LET'S GO for ? say you'll go alone , go alone uh !
bestfriend : *laughs . what the fuck sia LALA .
yours truly : * laughs .

HAFIZAH bestfriend! ,

that girl is so fucking GLAMOUROUS kan ? haha . buat aku punya puki tersendat sekejap ! nak kekek boleh ? hahaha . i'm talking about SITI SYAHADAH , yeah. in bold , bitch . happy now? (: sendiri mau sedar uh mok (exclaimation mark) look where you're at , where you're standing , not up to my bestfriend's standard uh . badan mesti kene MAINTAIN tau ! kalau tidak , obese . nak berbual , berbual depan-depan kay? jangan step sotong . aku tahu aku takd kene-mengene, tapi sebagai kawan , telinge aku panas ah dengar ni sume bende pepek . haha . minahrep ? oh tidak -.-' BAD REMARKS kau pasal bestfriend aku , g campak jauh-jauh atau simpan dalam babats kau tu okay. teeeeheeee ! nak straight-forward ? aku tegur kau in school aits ? tunggu sebentar ya . i will if my bestfriend insist . oh please uh , PEHA dah lah macam GAJAH ! ader hati nak pakai FBT . memalukan masyaKARAT ! -.-' tak sexy eh , please . *wink .

YOU CAN FIND HER IN MY 'SCHOOLMATES!' LINK .

girl , you make me wanna laugh so hard !

2009-10-23T00:15:00.003+08:00

here's the photos .
try to spot me okay ?
and fxck , dont laugh ! pffts .
ohh , i'm beside the girl with '15 ex' (informal).
HAHA ! only classmates and semut knows >.<
see , my classmates all look so innocent .
when actually, they're not innocent at all (:
nonsense behaviours ! tsktsktsk .

INFORMAL .

FUN SHOT .

PE LEADERS .

2009-10-22T02:32:00.004+08:00

dont mind me . i've got nothing better to do . i think i look like a retarded zombie (: and gosh , i'm not BLACK . it's just the direction i took the picture , it's dark but cooooooooool you know ! i like the 1st and 4th picture , ahaha .

2009-10-22T02:21:00.003+08:00

it's 2.30am in the morning and i'm not asleep yet . there's school tomorrow . i should be sleeping by now but i cant . i dont know why ? i think , i think i miss someone . i dont feel sleepy at all , not even a single bit . didnt knew missing someone too much can cause insomnia . aha , i must be crazy . i'm bored , bored without you here . come home soon , ass . because i'll be waiting ..

2009-10-21T22:51:00.004+08:00

FATHIN AMIRA; VOTED OUT !

i bet bestfriend's gonna go idadbabdajkbdjkadbjkasbdkabjd ! haha . oh my god , i screamed when Tabitha , Sezairi and Faizal got through the next round . i've just realised , all of the singapore idol contestants are VERY GOOD you know ! i'm starting to like Charles and Mae Sta Maria . haha , DUANE ? wait longlong eh . no originality . he sang Poker Face (Piano version) , the exact same version as how Lady Gaga sings it . like ZzZzZzZ! i wanna go watch America's Got Talent Results now . dada people !

2009-10-21T18:34:00.005+08:00

randomly taken by bestfriend .

2n1 gotten their 2nd combination results . i failed two subjects , obviously the weakest ones . still , they're not the overall results . i dont mind at all because i know i can improve next year if i concentrate more . i know i'm gonna be promoted . chey !

talked and gossiped with bestfriend during english period. he's full of wild and nonsensical imagination , i swear ! we couldnt stop laughing hearing what we've had imagined .

'' sini takde kiblat , tapi ader banyak musibat .'' (inside joke)

and dang , 'atas sejadah' (inside joke) is so disgusting okay ? tsktsktsk .

after excursion , received class photos . sadly , i ordered informal and fun shot . reason was , i dont look nice in the formal one , i think ? *laughs. everyone says i looked so innocent in every photo wherelse i'm actually not, tsk! then met Ridhwan and Wiwi at the foyer and they looked at my class photos .

yours truly : oh , do you know ! i look freaking innocent in the formal one ?

ridhwan/ahfat : you ARE innocent !

yours truly : really ? oh thank you .

* LAUGHS . i thought i was the evil one . head-ed to Mcdonald and bestfriend created a song for Wiwi . haha , hilarious ! wiwi , got buah not ? haha !

psst : bbygirl , i'm upset about your results . i dont know what to do, i cant do anything . i'm sorry i didnt talk much when you told me about it . i kept quiet and stared into blank spaces and look as if i dont care. i'm speechless , there's nothing i could do . i wished i know how to comfort you, but i'm not good at it . i'm sorry . i didnt expect any of it to occur. when you told me , my mind went blank, really blank that i dont know what to say to you and i can't even spit a word. cheer up okay! i wish you all the best(:

(name shan't be mentioned)

bulan , aku rindu kamu <3

2009-10-20T22:47:00.007+08:00

reedited - proper.

do you know that today Mohan is sweet ? not really though . he didnt line up at the stall , cut queue and wanted to be infront of me . Syahril got through , nasib kau ! so i told Mohan off and he hesitate at first . after long minutes of asking him to line up , he said '' it's okay . you go first '' in a soft manner . big deal ? no ! when i took the spoon and fork , he observed slowly . scary you know ! pffts . he's that arrogant guy everyone's been talking about , A-R-R-O-G-A-N-T . Mohan , screw you (: start learning to line up next time will you ? and guess what ! bestfriend said there's a possibility that i 'double' like Mohan . maybe yeah ? ewww GROSS ! *laughs. can i puke ? no way man . no way i like that kind of guy . bestfriend's words grossed me out ! tsktsktsk.

bestfriend, gwe suka banget deh play along sama kamu tapi loe kadang-kadang keterlaluan tawu ngak ? awasin kata-kata loe okay ? *wink .

KAUUUUUUUUU, AKU RINDUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU BANGETT ! <3

2009-10-20T20:40:00.011+08:00

bby . not even a day , i've already miss you .

heh , school was pretty much alright except that today was kinda tedious as i didnt get to text someone . i'll sure wait for four days with endurance and patience . when you come , i go . isn't it awesome ? nopes . Leadership Training Camp is on Friday and i'll be back on Saturday wherelse on Thursday/Friday?, baby will return from Malaysia . marvellous ! EOY results are out . not overall though , just the paper . i think i did quite good . my English dropped but Mother Tongue improved. i dont know why but that's just how it is right ? im'ma buck up next time then . there's no point sobbing about it , because to me what's done is done . it's not too late to improve yourself further. ohoh no, dont laugh yet . wait till you peep into my Literature . *tongues out* dont bother about Maths and Science . those are my weakest and yeah , i couldnt be bothered about it myself . here you go !

MT paper 1 - 44/70
MT paper 2 - 70/90
Literature - 72/100 (second highest in class!)
Maths paper 1 - 14/50
Maths paper 2 - 17.5/50
Design and Technology - 31.5/50
History - 50/100
English paper 1 - 30/60
English paper 2 - 39/80
Science paper - 45.5/100
Art final piece - 57.5/100

Muhammad Danial Nor Irfan , GWE RINDU BANGET SAMA LOE !
do you remember, after my MYE results , you told me to buck up?
i told you i will and now see , i did right ?
i think it's more than enough to be promoted to secondary three .
you must be proud of me ! i dont care .
because i didnt let you down , right ?
i dont care , either 3n2 or 3n3 . i've no hope for 3n1 at all .
i dont think 3n2 is my pathway , 3n3 is .

Muhammad Rian Alfian , (currently missing you like fxck!)
about my results , i dont know about you .
popped out eyes or horsey smile ? LOL !
i hope my results gratifies you .
must motivate me to do well for english
and teach me more english okay , TEACHER ? *laughs .

D'DK , listen up . this one for you guys.

after school , i arranged a rendezvous for kakigereks. we talked things out , clarify things and let out almost everything . i'm proud of you guys . now we know where each and everyone of us went wrong and how things can be settled in an easy way . i hope things will return to normal as before . it takes time to change and we'll give each other time to do so . no more argues and grudges please . now, we know what to do if we're not happy with one another - face to face confrontation . i really hope what i've explained to you guys just now really get into your brain . thanks for hearing me out eventhough i had to say it repeated times because of Hafizah and Teddy, but it's alright . i dont know if what i heard from Melda is true enough . whatever happens , we're still one . we won't forget you though, even if you're a thousand miles away . we're here for one another , to help each other out so don't hesitate . you guys know i dislike looking at you guys crying and then , never even bother to share . what are friends for right ? (: sarcasm won't appear if we understand one another . so stop sobbing , and start smiling . ily guys okay ? words can never describe . D'DK is meant to resemble our friendship, and i want us to last .

2009-10-20T18:23:00.014+08:00

i've just read today 'the newpaper' 20 October 2009 . what was published on the front page, gives a big impact on me and really disappoints me . it's weird to cry over this matter, so i'm holding em' back. 'it shouldn't hurt being a child' agree ? i do . i dont understand young parents nowadays . yeah, maybe it's alright to beat their childrens for disciplinary , but things shouldn't go beyond as unexpected , as their intention was to just give the child a lesson to be learnt . don't you sympathized the child who was beaten to death , just for an imbecile contemptible reason ? i couldnt believe the occurrence around the world now. they're getting too common . hoping it to just stop , isn't enough . i wished i could do something , but i can't possibly do it alone . god knows how i truly felt after i read what was published back then. as parents , they should not lack of understanding and defense . childrens don't deserve to be abused . come on , they're just childrens . what more do you anticipate from them ? young parents , stuff those good virtues in you . knock some senses into your head . where's all your patience and endurance end up to ? is that how you show good virtue towards your other childrens ? do you want them to end up like you in the future ? some fundamental questions that is way too elementary to be answered . if you're not ready to be a father/mother , please don't get married . don't be inebriated by love and then , abuse childrens . fuck you hard , if you do so . don't pretend ambidextrously because when you revealed your true colours out of the blue, you'll end up as a corrupted parent . again , fuck you ! fuck you hard . really hard , really really hard . very hard . before letting your children learn their lessons , please go learn yours ! show some good example . even as a 14 year old , i can think better than you . really , screw you (:

2009-10-20T01:28:00.003+08:00

'' because , it's not that i dont always get what i want. it's just that, i wasnt given a chance to . ''

so people, that's my sentence and that's how i motivate myself to move on with life (:

2009-10-16T16:32:00.005+08:00

"When I'm With You"

Saw you walk into the room
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe am I ever glad you wanted me to
It's been two years to the day
Half the time I've been away
I know I'm not there enough but that's gonna change
'cause I'm coming back
To show you that I'm keeping the promise I made

When I'm with you I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count when I'm with you

Yeah we've had our ups and down
But we've always worked them out
Babe am I ever glad we've got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight
Wishing I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough
Nothing feels right
So I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
When ever you're not around
When I kiss you I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
When I'm with you
Whatever it takes I'm not gonna break the promise I made
When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
Whenever you're not around
When I kiss you
I'll still get butterflies years from now
I'll make every second count
(Make every second count)
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
Yeah

i've dedicate this song to someone who i regard as special . i hope you like it (: weeks before , i'm sorry for leaving you just like that . reasons been told and i'm glad you understand what's really going on . i'm still gonna make it up to you and this song tells you every single thing that's gonna happen and is happening right now. this time i won't break my promise cause i'll always be there for you when you're down or even up. whenever you need me, i'm there okay ?

somehow, i think you complement me . i dont know ? you showed and taught me good virtue (:

2009-10-16T15:23:00.010+08:00

one of my super strong and sexy partner, WIWI , just reminded me something .

' CHICKEN IN THE PLASTIC , CHICKEN IN THE PLASTIC ' (inside song)

haha, Naufal made that sentence and i made a song out of it .
the way it is sung, super funny and cute. hahaha !

Naufal's song ,

' I LIKE IT LIKE THAT , I LIKE IT THAT YOU'RE FAT .'

cute man the song , specially made for (YOU KNOW I KNOW)

and yes , wiwi's eyebrow is so MINAH- ish . i wager you all think that she shaved /trimmed her eyebrow but no , she didnt . haha , wiwi was born to be a minah . *grin*

we're super strong and sexy , that no one can bring us down . it would be better if the world cry for us and not over stupid things, dont you think so wiwi and hafizah? LOL ! Ridhwan's jealous ! hahaha . ahfat , dont you worry a single bit . you're with us , BIG AND HOT * wink . had fun hanging out with you guys though . i hope there's more time for us to catch up on things (:

wiwi, GOOD LUCK and smile because whatever it is , im'ma be here for you , MINAH ! *laughs .

hopefully when our EOY results are out , all my fellow DDKs go for outings okay ? i dont want anyone to be left out and treated as if they're not part of us anymore . whoever is linked under DDKs (my link) , they're part of it . i dont care because no one's out . i dont want '' eh , i dont want (this and that) to go if not i wont go'' . stop being childish and grow up okay? even when you grew older later on , you'll still gonna learn things such as endurance and acceptance . we're still one as before eventhough things are quite complicated now. i need you guys to forgive and forget and stop blaming one another because this is not the way to solve things . *raise up eyebrow* understand understood melda , dewi , wiwi , naufal , azman , hafizah , hilmi , ridhwan ? i know some of us have betray one another but that was the past and i know we could still forgive each other . other things / people doesnt matter , what matter most is OUR conditions. i'm not gonna side anyone but be the middle person whereby i only go to the path where i think is right . i'm gonna be there for every single one of you , now have my word . done .

2009-10-16T13:20:00.003+08:00

' sometimes , your closest friend is your greatest enemy . '

Jason Fong .

dang , friends . you just need to dig profoundly to know who's your true friends . i dont understand why friendship is often drifted apart because of a GUY/GIRL ? so wrong man ! that should never be the way . i'm not siding anyone, i just dont like things to be this way . i thought we're 'sehati sejiwa' ? guess not . atleast try some luck and understand your friend's feeling . you're making it look like it's all her fault wherelse , it isnt . you told me you would talk to her and be honest, end up you dont . you told me it's not her fault and it's his fault , end up you incriminate her . sometimes i thought '' hey , what's the point of giving my listening ears when end up, instead of being honest, she's lying to herself ? '' i dont know what my advices mean to all of you but i know somehow i did make you guys feel better about yourself . it's infrequent to find a friendship whereby even when you guys are thousand miles away, nothing could stop that friendship from rising . we need understanding and honesty towards one another . i dont want you to keep on inculpating her because it's not even her fault at all . she has got the look that every guy would fall for . it's not her fault she has got that magnificent look . blame it on her parents then, if that gratifies you . shouldnt you be a little more genuine ? no offence but you're a saphead . you need to find out more about the verities and stop living in a world full of prevarication. im'ma talk to you in school about this . done (:

"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the SILENCE of our friends."
Martin Luther King, Jr. (1929-1968)

2009-10-16T13:03:00.005+08:00

seesee , she's OUT . what the fuck can ? no doubt her singing voice is awesome, guess there's not much voters out there for her. right NAUFAL ? she's gonna be famous somehow, someway . so dont fxcking argue with me about her being better than Faizal . tsk ! grrr , nevermind . i still have my FAIZAL ISA, SEZAIRI and TABITHA you know ! i think i'm obsessed with Faizal and his voice, ahaha ! shhhh (x he has got that full package of being singapore's SI this year , i dont lie . better be him or TABITHA =D

2009-10-13T19:25:00.003+08:00

haha , this was during HARI RAYA outing with mum side .

i swear my babycousin is uber cute !

2009-10-10T02:30:00.003+08:00

everyone knows what's HOT and sizzling right now ? uh huh, SINGAPORE IDOL ! i'm proud of these following idols *look down', yes. i'm in love with Faizal Isa most. gosh, fortunately four of them wasnt voted out . i pity Farhan Shah , but nah . i've no interest in him . he'll have another chance soon , so dont you worry okay Mary Alissa Jacob. These idols below , i cant imagine having a singing voice like them . AWESOME can! serioushit, i envy Tabitha and Nurul Huda . grrrrr ! im'ma vote for Faizal Isa in the next round. I DONT CARE ! i'm putting high hopes that this year Singapore Idol would be one of these four idols below but it would be more exciting if this year's Singapore Idol is a WOMAN ! bet you can't deny that Tabitha's gorgeous and the other three is superb excellent. ohoh, i'm not being racist. just that, there's not much chinese/indian/eurasian idol and i happen to be in love with four of them. ask me, why not Duane ? cause he dont have the look of a singer -.-' agree ? but he can sing ! i dont care actually. haha ! like one of the judge say 'let the audience see you as a singer who have got the look and not as someone who got the look and just so happen that he/she can sing.' =DDDDDDDDD ! vote for either one of them or ALL FOUR okay ! '.giggles.'

2009-10-06T18:45:00.004+08:00

today was no doubt hilarious . nowadays in school , i cant disagree but to say it's getting funnier and funnier each day . i didnt pay much attention in class though . aha, i cant be bothered because nothing is gonna be stucked inside my head . might as well i self-study ! exams or no exams, nothing seems to be different. i texted ShengJie , Calvin , Jeremiah , Clarissa and Roslee eventhough they are just few tables away from me . we'll be like smiling at each other and laughed to ourselves . Calvin's was the funniest ! =D we were disturbing each other , to be precise .

i taught Calvin all sorts of malay bad words/criticism . ahaha , sorry KOR >.< - pukimak kau lobang square . tetek powder ! - monyet taik lalat (referring to adik' Roslee) * Roslee looked at me and smile while saying 'HUH? WHAT!' (x
- aku nak jolok guru aku !
- gwa mau jolok guru saye !
- buah aku rosak .
* This was the funniest ! he said it out loud and the malays in class laughed . corrupted balls !
- nurul berbabat .
* Calvin : NURUL ! NURUL ! berbabat . (quarter of the class *laughs*)
- zhi jia muke cacat .
- nurul badan macam gajah .
* I was giggling so hard / non- stop .

Calvin very cute ! haha. you dont know how much the class hated NURUL and ZHIJIA . yes, dont believe ? ask them . not all of them actually . most of my classmates do and only 2-3 dont . we criticised them every way we can . gossiped about them whenever we've got something to say. evil classmates , we know . NURUL's a bragger . the biggest of all and snobbish much? tsk ! another makcik KPO in our class , aint she ? pfft . i dont know about Zhi Jia . ah yes ! i dare to go against BOTH =D that rusted girl , once pressed, they'll fall . -.-' Nurul got 15 ex boyf? unbelievable . mine's not even upteens , only FOUR . must be really PRETTY huh ? haha. i dont wanna sound 'HOOLIGAN-ish' here but one day, i'll bring her down , way much down , way deep down , way deeper than last year . trust me . oh, currently i'm pranking her with my new number. hahahaha ! she's my character's 'GIRLFRIEND' . desperado siaaaaa , tsk3 . i love being CHILDISH ! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD i'm not contented with her, i want more .

above picture . that's me and NURUL , during secondary one . we were close back then. one day, she did something horrible which makes me go against her and i brought her down . in the end , most of my classmates hate her (: aweeeeeesome ! >.< fault ="DDDD">enough said . D'crew head-ed to Novena after school . ate KFC . planned to study at Starbucks but we went to sit outside McD instead . Fizah went off first , followed by Melda & Hilmi . soon, we dwindled . left ME, Dewi, Naufal and Azman. i was STUDYING , unbelievable ! but something hilarious came up that i had to stop and enjoy the commotion . Naufal & Dewi was arguing and snatched each others belongings and threatened to sink it into the waterfall next to us . after all those commotion, we went inside McD and i swear , we had lots of fun(: they were playing with McD's sugar . i'm so irritated ahk ! just so happen , Melda left her pencil case with us . we were about to went off but we kept throwing her pencil case to each other while saying

'BAWA BALIK ! BAG AKU BERAT LA !'

hahaha . so i packed my bag and said

'SEBELUM AKU KENE BAWAK BALIK, AKU BELAH DULU !'

and ran outside while laughing . Followed by Naufal , then Azman . I pity DEWI . ahaha . okayokay , SHE FELL DOWN ! infront of ALOT of people. we laughed hysterically >.<

here's the video of Naufal and Dewi act =DDDDD 6 minutes .

dang , didnt know i would update such a long post like this . sorry for any broken english or whatever crap ah kay ? i'm just too lazy to check and write in proper sentences. haha !

2009-10-04T23:03:00.000+08:00

FRIENDS (D'crew) RAYA OUTING .
there's gonna be more , next week (:

2009-10-04T22:33:00.000+08:00

taken during the 3rd family raya outing .

i wore kain thailand, okay ? so dont ask anymore (x

i know it's nice, LOL ! shut up .

pictures of 1st and 2nd day will be up sooooooooon enough .

if my computer accepts the device , ahaha !

now i dont know where i place the camera .

woah, so wait long long yeah .

i'm off to study w adik now , byebye !

2009-10-03T23:38:00.000+08:00

so yeah, i'm sorry for not updating for a week or so . im'ma start updating now eventhough exams has started . pfft, i cant be bothered with exams like serioushit -.-'

pictures below are pictures taken during d'crew outing =D aha, yeah. we went East Coast Park after school, together with Syahrul . that guy , pfft . made us walk a long distance and there was when he crossed over a brick-fence and there's a path which leads us to nowhere . gosh ! so we crossed the brick-fence again but this time, it's full of red ants. ahaha, the girls freaked out . i crossed over but i fell. ahahaha, my leg got scratched (: overall, i enjoyed that day . so yeah, now enjoy viewing these pictures !

the minah's and mat's pose ? idk eh ( imitating )

2009-09-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

JAKUN ! (:
Mazda RX8 . muahahahahahaha !
unfortunately, it's not mine .
but YELLOW not nice , red / black / orange nicer .
i would prefer lamborghini (spelling?) .
hahaha ! in the future okay .
i bet bby's gonna be jealous . *tounge out !*

nah, actually not JAKUN kkay !
nothing better to do . weeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~

2009-09-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

there's three videos ? yeah, that's about it. whaaaaaaaaatever . so let's make it clear . we're chaotic doesnt mean we're mats & minahs . we're natural and not plastic (: yes, mats and minahs are chaotic but why must it affect the ones who are not mats and minahs ? use your brain (: especially my seniors .. teeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeee ! dont anyhow judge. we dislike.

there are videos of :

1st : ' Naufal & Hafizah disturbing one another .
( happens all the time . if not , it would either be ME and Naufal or ME and Hafizah . haha ! )

2nd : ' US, being chaotic in the LIFT .

( i seriously hate this part ! c'mon , i 'm small . DYDY squeezed and pushed me ! pfft . ELMELDA started first . a- hole , kambing . )

3rd : ' some of US being chaotic, along th' pavement .

( Naufal & Elmelda (: after which, Elmelda & Helmi . then, it was ME & Elmelda . )

psst : i'm still having trouble wearing contact lens . KELIPKELIP. aku benci ! tsk .

2009-09-23T22:38:00.000+08:00

excuse me for not updating my blog for how many days ? ah yeah , kinda busy. hehe .

today after school , had journeys around toa payoh area while waiting for peeps and then met them up at th' library to study. tsk! end up, we went to toa payoh sky garden because the library suck . pictures were captured , imitation were made, videos are taken . and you'll see how kecoh we are . tsk ! but sadly, those videos wont be in this post. the next one kkay ! (:

under my block, while the sun was about to set (:
sempat yknow!

hahahahahahaha! *laughs*
Naufal tryna pose like minahrep,
LALA' tryna pose like matrep .
tidak menjadi langsung !
yes, VERY fugly ! have th' pleasure to laugh xD

while waiting for Naufal ..

i LOVE th' picture below >.<

2009-09-19T21:58:00.000+08:00

i hope brother gonna help me pierce later (:
there's no point listening to people when i'm nothing to them.
they talk alot by advising but they're all dust .
i live my life the way i want to and you, can kiss my ass .
dont like my concept ? dig a hole 7 feet down for yourself .

but wait, momma gonna be mad at me .
no, DAD will .
well, screw you DAD =D
see, i'm polite .

i'm still considering. bby, HELP ? i need your honest opinion .

2009-09-19T21:34:00.000+08:00

can i kill my dad ?
rob him and marry a hot rich caucasian guy ?
Alex Gaskarth or Shane Crump ?

2009-09-19T19:39:00.000+08:00

HILARIOUS ! i swear. i laughed like ZOMG !

#2 abang and his friends. tsk! i told abang i wanna post this up but he told me not to but I DONT CARE ! abang if you're reading this, KISS MY ASS ! hahahaha. FYI , they're all BOYS except for th' last picture . th' one with th' white jacket is a GIRL (: they've got nothing better to do, so ended up like this, corrupted characters!

BUT HILARIOUS !

they're pretending to be:

#2 brother - Minahrep.

Ayid - Mat Johor.

El - Minah Kampung.

Sha - Girl

Flex - Nerdy Guy

Zouk - Matrep

Sham - Barbie Doll

&& shhhhhh, dont tell my brother hor !

psst: i like his friends because they're cool >.<

since brother dont wanna upload this in his blog, why not i HELP out kan.

hahahaha !

2009-09-19T18:46:00.001+08:00

my favourite ! CUTE song. i like the EWA EWA part most. hehe (x

This one is sooooooooooooooooo adorable ! (:
my current singing voice match th' girl's voice.
muahahahaha . i think ? haha ! NO LAH ! LALA 'feelingfeeling'.
i sound way much more better, CHEY ! hahahaha .
Anuar Zain's hot by the way >.<

2009-09-19T12:44:00.000+08:00

HELLO assholemotherfuckers!
i wanna share my glory, can? (:
hahahahaha !

this year , i succeeded on fasting for a month !
okay , dont count last two days and today because somehow, my menses tagged along on the 17th. i'm irritated by it, what a spoiler . pfft ! cant fast for 3 days. well, THREE DAYS only. no big deal. i cant avoid menses, what to do . tsk ! so much hope of 'NO MENSES PLEASE! I WANNA FAST FOR A MONTH' but TADA! there they came . tooot ! i dont care , still counted as one month ! i dont care ! i dont care ! ): i know , girls will be like 'OH YEAH ! menses. ' but me ? NO NO NO! told you i'm unique , tsk . and yes, i've helped mum with th' chores. waitwait, i went to the kitchen and FXCK ! =D th' sink was filled with TONTONTONTONS of dishes . what the hell -.-' but, IM DONE now (:

sucha good daughter hor (x

I JUST ATE NUTELLA WITH BREAD JUST NOW AND IT'S FXCKING NICE UH EH ! :P muahahahaha . oh my god, i miss bbysemut ! ):

2009-09-19T11:31:00.000+08:00

Boy's Version

Girl's version

well, i did some bloghoppin' to other blogs these few days and what i noticed was that most of those blogspots have this song in em' . i'm just curious so i went to youtubed it and listened to it . haha! okay, i can't deny it any longer but YES, this song is AWESOME. trust me! (:

oh well, i'mma go off now. mum's a bugger, i swear. need'a help with th' chores. pffft ! and i dont give a fuck on what day is tomorrow. LOL ! yes, ex boyfriend's coming over later! (: that means $100 ! >.<

2009-09-19T09:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday called #2 brother down to Toa Payoh Interchange . we had plans but ex-boyfriend ruined it (: kkay whatever , we went to fetch mum and dashed home.

DyDy & Fizah :

heh, i know . i'm sorry , truly sorry for making you guys wait that fxcking long just for me (eh?)but i know i did ask you guys to either go whampoa or just go home, i didnt force you guys to stay but you guys were still hesitating . when i told you guys i wanna walk off with my brother, somehow Fizah showed me the 'look' which makes me feel guilty about everything. i'm sorry because yesterday, you guys waited with me and i had to leave just like that..

- EX-BOYFRIEND OWE ME $100 NOW !

i'm holding onto his adidas watch and ring . if you ever dare to paitaw, i wont let you off that easily. like you said 'you PROMISED' that you'll give the money. hahaha, i dont care what your problem is but by tonight , you'll have to. see, you make things so complicated that you had to buck up the value. make me wait for 1 HOUR somemore hor (: guessed he wanna trick me yesterday but i was way much more smarter that he went *speechless* . muahahahaha !

2009-09-18T00:32:00.000+08:00

1st page .

2nd page .

LOOK ! who gave me more LUV ?
tsk, obviously BBY does ! BUSTED kan ! haha .
be very jealous because it's all mine (nah !)
Muhd Rian Alfian SUCKSUCKSUCK BALLS !
you 'can ' always TRUST and depend on him because he's a LIAR .
hahahahaha ! i mean it , seriously .

2009-09-18T00:09:00.000+08:00

This was like way long long time ago . Yana knows (:
Click it and read what he says about me .
HAHA !

2009-09-17T22:47:00.000+08:00

i'm starting to hate and love school at the same time.

this week, my daily routine would be SLEEPSLEEPSLEEP (:

i dont know why i'm so tired nowadays, BBY'S FAULT !

exam's 2 weeks away, i've gotta study !

i shall seriously start next week.

i had FUN during every Design & Technology lessons .

LIKE OH MY GOD , i'm in love .

with ? with DNT !

i'll concentrate like one motherfucker .

i wont entertain bby, even !

and today, thanks Calvin Yeo' Kor !

for splashing water at me during DNT, asshole .

i was just sharing my hand soap (x

so unappreciative !

we rocks ah ! haha .

let's play somemore, i dont care !

just you wait .

2009-09-16T21:51:00.000+08:00

SOME PEOPLE cannot be trusted .
i've been living in a world full of lies .
i'm not lying , i'm just stating th' fact .
when you trust em ' , they fool around .
when you lose trust , they talk shits .
when you trust em' , they lied .
when you lose trust , they'll confess .
when you trust em' , they never appreciate you .
when you lose trust , they regret .

calvin' kor once said ''dont trust someone so easily'' and now i know what he's trying to say ..

i've been acting kinda different lately , i think .
i bet most of th' ddk noticed that i dont talk much these days .
i bet most of them noticed that i hadnt been myself at all .
i bet most of them noticed that i've been keeping quiet th' whole day .
i dont know why and not sure what th' reason is .

hey you,
dont you see ? when you're greedy , in th' end you'll lose everything .

2009-09-16T18:53:00.000+08:00

TO secondary 2 MALAY Guangyang Secondary girls (minahs) ,

listen up, i heard someone is unhappy with me yet dont wanna confront me ? i've asked Hidayah which one of you is unhappy with me but she refused to tell . why? i know she's not involve but she's the one who told my friend that one of you is unhappy with me . i wanna know who and end this shit once and for all. i thought GYSS terror what ? tsk . come on, what did i do now? typical minahs . pfft ! i dont even know you girls , NOT EVEN A SINGLE ONE OF YOU ! excluded Asiyah . since when did i interrupt your freaking life ? i dont even know you people ? tsk . if you're unhappy with me, PLEASE confront me . yeah, i dislike people acting this way. it's shitty. what's th' use of keeping hatreds and not overcome it ? imbecile. wow, and if 'YOU' happens to be Asiyah , count me out because you're my primary school friend and i dont wanna argue with you but if you still insist , i will play along(: you know what ? it cant be you because you know me too well already or maybe .. not ? whatever. oh, infront of your friends, please stop acting terror. thank you ! that day i saw you with your girls and what ? haha ! i heard one of you screamed ''LALALALALA!'' how irritating can that be huh? alot . who's disturbing who now ? pfft . i dont care. if you got th' guts, CONFRONT ME ! i'm gonna wait and if you're still hiding , you're a coward . case will close then and i wont bother about you . still not happy ? go fxck yourself (: stop playing hide and seek and show yourself . stop being INANE . yes, it's INANE not INSANE. dont know th' meaning, google it ! too bad i'm not scared of you girls . LALA SCARED ? wait until pig can fly and NO, no aeroplane/helicopter/jet and etc ! GYSS people, spread this post to them, will you?

why people are always unhappy with me when i did nothing wrong ? jealous ? -.-' fxck yourself, please .

2009-09-16T18:21:00.000+08:00

Mosaic Zen Mp3 .

own this ? then please take good care of it . reason ? nothing. i was just being random (: wait, i wanna tell you something sweet .. ready ?

MY MOSAIC ZEN MP3 IS HALF CORRUPTED ! (:

reason ? i dont know why but eversince my precious little friend, DEWI, spilt water on it, my speaker is half corrupted because .. it's not as loud as before and it does HANG . i had to reset everytime it hangs ! troublesome . everything happens after the 'not on purpose' accident . right Dewi ? haha. i'm not gonna blame her because i dont know what's the true reason . i've never dropped my mp3 before the accident but after, i dropped it like gazillions ! Dewi cursed me ! oh my god . i'm disappointed . haha, FAKE ! and again, i dont blame you ! tsk . as long as it still works, i'm alright . tell you what, i'm gonna spoil yours if you bought one, fair ? haha! i'm serious! (nah!) (: but seriously, this mp3 rocks ! i'll recommend them . haha !

so people, lesson learnt . don't put your valuables anywhere near drinks or food (: be it wallet, handphone, mp3/4, ipod or whatever shit you got aites ! LISTEN TO ME ! haha.

2009-09-15T18:16:00.000+08:00

life could be a little irony sometimes .
spontaneous things could happen .
nightmares turn to reality .
but i dont care, really .
that's how life should be and,
everything is in god's hand .
make me happy or miserable ?
terpulang .

Allah menciptai kita untuk mengawasi adakah hamba-hambanya sanggup bersabar dan menahan kehidupan yang diberinya ? dapatkah hamba-hambanya menghargai diri mereka dan orang-orang disekelilingnya ? tahukah hamba-hambanya mengatasi setiap masalah yang dihadapi mereka ? mampukah hamba-hambanya menjadi orang yang berguna ? (:

i heard this somewhere ,

we dont bother about th' one who admire us,
but we admire th' ones who cant be bothered with us .
we hurt th' ones who love us .
but we love th' ones who have hurt us .

15 September's PHYSICAL EDUCATION, ily <3

2009-09-14T17:59:00.000+08:00

Life is meaningless without you
Love can be such a beautiful torture
My heart breaks as I long for you
Love can be such lovely torture

I will climb the hills, draw my sword and take down
Anyone who tries to stand in front of me
Please know I'll never run away without you in my arms
One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss
Not of Romeo or Juliet
Stories told of our love will never die

I've slain the most unholy things, endured such terrific pain
Finally I'll feel your caress again
I've braved the cold and lonely seas, I have prevailed against the odds
Then again...

I will climb the hills, draw my sword and take down
Anyone who tries to stand in front of me
Please know I'll never run away without you in my arms
One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss
Not of Romeo or Juliet
Stories told our love will never die

Will you forgive what I've done to give you four white horses?
One day lovers will dream of this undying kiss
Not of Romeo or Juliet
Stories told our love will never die

listen to it carefully and you'll understand .

2009-09-14T17:32:00.000+08:00

ma yi,

dui bu qi . wo bu dong ying gai xiang xin shui . wo xu yao zhen xiang . qi shi wo bu guan ke shi wo bu yao xiang yi ge sha gua . ru guo wo wen ni , ni nui bu hui jiang shi hua ? wo ying gai zhou hai shi li kai ? gao shu wo . wo bu zhi dao yao xuan shen me . wo xian zai zhi xu yao shi shi . jin tian shi wo zui hon yi u , zai jian .

ru guo ni zai hu, shi yi shi zao ge ban fa , ni hui lai zao wo . ru guo ni bu yao , jiu wang le wo & wo ye hui .

wo zhi dao wo yi ding hui hou huide ..

need translation ? i'll translate for certain people ONLY, depending on who you are. ask me !

2009-09-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

WEBCAMWHORE !

specially for reeANT.
th' SEMUT trademark i made for him !
he knows, i know . haha !

ALEX GASKARTH's pose .
i know bby's really jealous of this .
he said i'm adorable but when i told him it's Alex Gaskarth's pose,
he took back his words. HAHA!
atleast, my Alex Gaskarth is HOTTER than his Jessica Alba (:
you can't deny boy, NO WAY ! *evil laugh*

a MIMIC of bby's brother. DANIAL (:
COOLIO ay ? haha. Danial dont know.
soon enough , he will !
wonder how will he react eh ? tsk .

another MIMIC . LOL ! not a good one huh ?
it's better down there, yes? haha !
*LOOK DOWN* i love th' one BELOW !
only bby knows why i did all these mimic stuffs.
*evil laugh* , again .

SWEAR , I LOVE TO IMITATE PEOPLE'S POSE .
awesooooooooooooooooooomeeely FUN .

i'm not a copycat . it's for fun ! tsk , i have my own originality

2009-09-13T02:45:00.000+08:00

COOL RIGHT ? we know we're HOT !

hahahahahaha .

2009-09-13T02:31:00.000+08:00

✖x ᴙεᶒαᴎT ★ AlfεᶒαɳT x✖ says:
nth
ure pretty

•×[ ŁαŁα ]×• says:
=.="
i'm not .
i'm hot .
LOL !
hahahaha

HAHA, i know !

2009-09-13T02:29:00.001+08:00

OH MY GOD !

BBY MAKE ME SMILE WIDELY AGAIN !

THANK YOU BBOY >.<

2009-09-13T00:22:00.001+08:00

bby, you're different now. i dont know why or what but it makes me feel kinda down to even think about it. as days went by, th' way i'm treated changes. i dont want this to happen, but it just did. i dont know what i did, or what i say but i'm truly sorry for everything wrong that i did. bby, stop thinking that you did something wrong towards me because you dont. though your reaction towards me can make me feel frustrated or down, my concern for you wont ever change. i know you're feeling guilty for making me angry and so on but i'm alright with it. since you're this way, all i can do now is to endure. i dont wanna make this matter a big fuss because i dont wanna argue with you anymore. i'm writing it here to express what i truly feel and if you're reading this, please change. you're not a fool nor a bullshit. never were. i dislike you saying that about yourself. if things were to continue like this, count me out because i can't stand looking at myself this way. i dont wanna fall anymore but i dont want you to leave either.. i dont need a new hero, i need you. my moon. if there's a reason why, i need an explaination .

now let me tell you th' truth ,

i feel like tearing out now , but i tried my best not to and i'm not doing so .. because i'll find myself stupid if i do so (:

i'm sorry, let's play pretend .

2009-09-12T03:35:00.001+08:00

th' video above, i can't stop watching it, I SWEAR . addicted !

you know why? because it makes me smile when i'm down or mad , especially to see SOMEONE in it . you can easily laugh so hard by watching it. th' way they act, lip sync , so on and so forth. you'll never get bored watching it over and over. pfft, got talent of being a fool kan bby? LOL ! but it's effin' cute , oh my god! it was like, what? a year ago . tsk ! th' last almost ending part, he laughed. haiyoooo ! effin' cute , bodoh. kay, i shall shut up now. ENJOY ! =D

my USUAL gerek readers who thinks my blog is AWESOME ,

i bet you know i've uploaded this video before and for some reason, i deleted that post. HAHA! alright, uploaded again. HAPPY ? okay best .

2009-09-11T23:51:00.000+08:00

let's talk about mister SEMUT since he asked me to post about his SWEETNESS .

basically, his sweetness is indeed very sweet. he's the sweetest person that i ever came across in my own sweet life. haha ! most or to be precise , ALL of his sweet words are the sweetest because it's really sweet and i love it when he's sweet. i'm in love with his sweetness because he's not sweet talking (i hope) and he knows how to be sweet. his sweetness are too sweet to be true. those sweetness of his cant be replace with other's sweetness because his sweetness are really too sweet than anyone. he has that sweet thing inside his sweet heart that makes himself sweet because he knows how to make people think that he's sweet even when he's not sweet. he can never be sweet for a day because he's always sweet. even his goodnight text are sweet. everything about him is sweet till i wanna lick him. CHEY! fake. now we know we're sweet and that makes us the sweetest because i'm also sweet to him. HAHA! you cant deny my sweetness bby. i know it's very sweet of me to post about your sweetness right? i really mean it and yeah, obviously, i'm sweet myself . LOL ! i love his sweetness, he loves mine xD everyone knows i'm sweet too because i'm actually really sweet as i always gives sweet advices and sweet motivational words for those unsweet people to move their sweet lifes. god creates us to be sweet and we should share on how to be sweet. let's not waste our sweetness and be sweet to everyone, but be the sweetest towards US. LOL ! sweeeeetsweeeeeet(:

2009-09-11T01:24:00.001+08:00

http://theastroboy-storyline.blogspot.com/ ,

check out his blog (:

i updated for him. HAHA! sorry abang.

2009-09-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

boy,

' i'm really sorry. i dont know what got into me but, it's pretty convincing that i'm not the only one since you told me not to ask. i'm just stating the fact. if it's not true, why dont you even bother to prove me wrong ? instead, you let it be and let me think what i wanna think. you told me to think before saying anything . i did, and that's what i've gotta say. i really dislike us arguing like this. you know you've disappoint me by saying something just now , and yet we still drag another matter along. i know i dont mean anything to you. without me, you can still smile. you didnt mean it when you told me i'm the only person who can actually make you smile widely, dont you? now i truly believe that not all good things last long. i dont want us to be in this state. it's not easy to trust someone that easily. it's not easy to appreciate someone that easily. with you, it's easy to do so because you're the one who dragged me from my sorrows and put a glow into my life. i dont ever wanna lose you but since we're like this, i have no other choice. one sorrow after another. i dont know till when things will end. i dont know when will that person enter and put a glow into my life till eternity. everything's from the bottom of my heart. whatever i've said to you, all those sweet words, i'm not sweet-talking. i really do mean all those things that i've said. i dont know why i'm feeling the pain again. the pain that i used to had. boy, i'm truly sorry. i'm sorry if i'm harsh and acted negatively towards you. i'm sorry if i've hurt you. i didnt mean to. you know i never had such mean intention in mind. please take away this pain. i cant bare it any longer.. now, we're acting like strangers . i dislike .

'γøŭŕ тřυтн ιş α dεсεртιøи мεαит тø рøιѕøи мε '

' a dream is a dream but every nightmare starts with a girl' , NO ! i totally disagree (:

yours truly,
LALA .

2009-09-10T23:41:00.000+08:00

i've noticed in SOME countries, things like this are happening quite often . it's not just a few or RARELY but it's more than what you're expecting, more to the extend . This kind of things are becoming too common. I dont understand why these kind of heartless people even live in this world . Doing harsh things to an innocent, poor and helpless child. it feels so wrong . you gave birth to a beautiful , clean soul and you're putting it to waste. it carries a lot of hardship to get the baby out of your womb and when it's out , you simply treat the baby this way. the person who brought the baby into this world didn't even bother to pick up the child and care for him. what's more important ? your BOYFRIEND or your own flesh blood ? pathetic people . to murder and abuse such innocent childrens who did nothing wrong towards you, you'll face a lot of consequences after death. not in heaven, but HELL . yes, HELL . may you heartless people ROT in HELL. if you dont want your child, you can simply put the baby for adoption . there's no need for you to act this way. serioushit , it's not needed. it's not a pleasant feeling to be going through constant pain, especially for the babies . to watch this kind of reality video, my eyes can easily tear up. dont you know, childrens are the faces of angel. hurting an angel, won't bring any good to you. heartless people like Baby P's murderer are a complete egoistical self-centered bastards who shouldnt even live in this world. okay, enough. those innocent childrens are resting in peace by now .. atleast better, than to suffer living in this world being abused. they've found a happier place to live in and i really wanna put a stop to this . i really do. i dont want to see any of this happening again. i dont know how to but i know someday , the world will be able to hear me out. i'm not the only one who wanna put a stop to this, the nation do too. really, someone please do something about this. PFFFT!

2009-09-10T04:15:00.000+08:00

i'm 'TALING TO MYSELF'. yeah, talked to myself while baby watched me suffer. he enjoyed it, how petty ! CB walankan, but we're sweeeeeeeeeeet, you know ! sweeter than any of you ! oh, shut up, dont get jealous of us. haha !

•×[ ŁαŁα ]×• γøŭŕ тřυтн ιş α dεсεртιøи мεαит тø рøιѕøи мε ∙:
eh bby . you marah ?
serious2.
kalau you marah kan
i tawu ape nak buat
✖x ᴙεᶒαᴎT ★ AlfεᶒαɳT x✖:
TAK
•×[ ŁαŁα ]×• γøŭŕ тřυтн ιş α dεсεртιøи мεαит тø рøιѕøи мε ∙:
lol.
i tarik you peh BIBIR
from one corner
to another
tarik kasi jauh BBY !
ah ah .
betul .
terus,
=D
tak boleh frown
ah kan
aku layan diri aku sndri
wahh
gerek beb !
suke sekali !
owh .
dah la, lala .
ape ?
kau irritating siak !
aku ? CB MAK KAU !
sial ah ? aku tak maki per?
aku tawu, aku nak maki pulak ! kau leh buat ape ?
✖x ᴙεᶒαᴎT ★ AlfεᶒαɳT x✖:
yay! wayang!
•×[ ŁαŁα ]×• γøŭŕ тřυтн ιş α dεсεртιøи мεαит тø рøιѕøи мε ∙:
REMBAT KAU AH !
rembat ah ! eh, asal ader budak xtravanganza pat sni ?
ntah, mane aku tawu. tu bdk mmg la sial
ohh, selalu xtra pe ?
abeh ! takkan kau tktaw
tu ah. de tgk wayang pn , nak blang
tu psl ! tak perlu siul
haha. nak rembat per ?
tak nak ah.
asal pulak ?
aku baik siul
kau baik ?
abeh !
kiwak, boleh caye pe ?
taktaw eh.
gitu ? aku tak caye uh .
tak caye sudah. aku pn tk heran
tak heran eh . aku rembat kau . amcm ?
rembat lah. kau BBL lebih, action ABOK sia.
relax ah ! aku type penat siak.
lol, kau pikir kau sorang ?
takd lah . aku tk pikir gitu
hah !
kau ni pun,
asal nan aku ?
yg kau bbl nan diri kau sndri tu knp ?
haha, mane aku tawu ?
tkkn kau tk taw ?
tktaw ah . baby aku ni ah. syok2 tgk wayang. tk ajak aku
rabak pe ! tak sedih ?
sedih lah . haishh. aku nak nanges pn ader.
asal pulak ?
pasal ..
asal ?
pasal ..
ASAL LA MUSIBAT !
pasal aku nga merane
huh? maksud kau ?
JARI AKU PENAT LAH BODOH !
ohh,
oh mak kau
asal nan mak aku ?
✖x ᴙεᶒαᴎT ★ AlfεᶒαɳT x✖:
dadada bby

see ! and that pariah still can say i'm cute when i'm tired . sembiring betul ! opps, wrong name.
but when he's around, it's easy for me to go OOHLALA or to be precise, CRAZY (:
right bby ? that gundu donkey face , haha .
bby, babi terbang ! go look at your mirror and you'll see . HAHA!

2009-09-10T03:51:00.000+08:00

RIAN ALFIAN !
MY NOSE MANCUNG LAH !

dont jealous (:
i look like ANG MO , dont believe ? haha.
wait, more like arab .
yes , arab .
cool kan?
kau jealous tak ?
aku tahu !
orang cakap MANCUNG,
kau punyer tak,
diamdiam sudah .

tapi aku rase, aku nampak macam caucasian uh? betul kan? yupyup, benar. aku tahu. kau pun tahu bby. kau tak boleh tipu. TUHAN MARAH !

lagipun , mak aku cakap, abang aku cakap, adik aku cakap. alah . FAMILY aku (:

kau JEALOUS, kau pun kene CAKAP bby !

aku talking FACT la okay , kau jangan cemburu . abeh lari g kat ibu, nanges .
dah tu takpe, nampak aku, lari sembunyi belakang pokok.
ASAL bby ? OH , tak mancung kan ?
alalalala , jangan takut lah. i takkan ketawe. limit2 TERBAHAK-BAHAK pa.
yang masok hospital , aku . bukan kau .
yang tak boleh nafas, aku. bukan kau.
so no worries and smile !

HIDUNG AKU ! MANCUNG BABE ! suke tak? opps. jangan answer.
i know you jealous . hahahahahaha ! :P mesti lah kau tak suke.
pasal hidung aku CUTE , tak macam kau . DONKEY !

bby, kau tengah bace kan ? aku tahu. aku yang suruh kau bace pe ! kau jugak yang suruh aku post pasal hidung aku . okay best ay ! kau bace, tag taknak ? musibat. opps, sorry. orang hidung tak mancung, tak perlu tag uh. buat menyemak jerq.

APE NI ?

✖x ᴙεᶒαᴎT ★ AlfεᶒαɳT x✖:
sorry siket ehk, my hidung paling mancung ehk
pffft

psst: bby ? kau perasaan pe ? haiyoyo . kau puji diri sendiri tawuq bby ! jangan lah. tak bagos jadi self-praiser. kau jealous kan, pasal aku ny hidung mancung, bab tu kau pun nak ikut2 . copycat pe? baik bby! i suke sekali ! haha. please lah bby, jangan jadi jubo kat sini ah. haha!

LOL ! bby, i know you're mad at me. hahaha(: NO JOKE, NO FUN, remember?

TE AMO ! =D

2009-09-08T18:55:00.000+08:00

i always had fun chatting & texting bby everyday .

there was never a time he'll make me FROWN.

okay, before but now, NEVER . surprised? yes.

that's why he ROCKS !(x

freakin' random man , I LIKE !

bby: LALAsayangbbywhateverluh, HI! hehe.

myself: haha. so cute ! HELLO, prince charming ! hahahaha(: one day come my house w a white horse kay ! =P

bby: hahaha. Prince charming kepe. haha. cancan. then we go raye ride horse kay. haha. kay lets stop non stop!

myself: hahaha! so unique. people are gonna be jealous w us. lol! but yknow how to ride horse not? i scared accident!

bby: haha. yeah. erm, i only have a 'riding donkey' cert, boleh luh tu kan. hahaha! idk. hee.

myself: OMG bby! no wonder you look like a donkey. why donkey? ride DOG better. can doggystyle. lol! fake2.

bby: hahaha. wth. idk. hehehe. wahwahwah, tawu je die ehk. Neh, no need dog also can what. tsk. lol!

myself: hahaha! handsome donkey. what dont need? need lah! practice. LOL! eheh hello mister, i wasnt born yesterday okay. of course i know.

bby: Cb luh u squid. hahah. yela, you knw EVERYTHING kay. hahah. tsk. wyd?

myself: hahahah! what's wrong w my CB? KNN ! i squid, atleast cute and taste better than donkey okay. blogging. you? LOL

bby: Your CB uh. Hmm. how i know. urs what. i dont own it. lol. yaya, just say lala is better than rian most of the time. hah. ouh yeah update. heh. otw nenek's house. heh.

myself: of course it's mine and not yours! go jage yours lah. dont sebok2 ppl punye. no, we're both equal lah ! wah, BUKE already not? tsk .

bby: hahaha. i dnt have luh. tsk. yay equal. hehehe. aru finished. bby?

myself: haha. BUTO, dont have? wah, GAYBOY. lol. stopped eating halfway. later continue. so fast ah bby. tsk3.

.
..
...
....
.....
......
.......
........
.........
..........

yesterday he told me ''knw what, your my sweetest drug. hee~. kay random'' >.<

2009-09-07T01:41:00.000+08:00

FEEQ'S BLOG :

"Love is that first feeling you feel before all the bad stuff gets in the way."

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth."

"Love is when a girl puts on a perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other."

"Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your french fries without making them give you any of theirs."

"Love is when someone hurts you and you get so mad but you don't yell at them because you know it would hurt their feelings"

"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."

"If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate."

"When you tell someone something bad about yourself and you're scared they wont love you anymore but then you get surprised because not only do they still love you, they love you even more"

To add on to it, i'll say .

"Love is most probably showing love and concern towards one another. If there's no love, there's no concern.To know that someone you love will be there for you, it's enough to bring pleasure into your day.It's about listening to one another problems and giving our frank opinions.Depending on that person , to hold you tight and not let go. Putting hopes that he/she wont let you down, give you false hope or break your heart. Accepting you for who you are and not what you're pretending to be. When you're around them , love surrounds you. You'll feel protected, secure and safe. The way you're treated , brings you at ease and how their sweet words always never fails to tranquil your soul when you're furious about something. It's how they understand almost every single thing about you and appreaciate you. Let others have a good impression of you two and not something bad and to takecare of each other's dignity and reputation. Giving more than what you've got and not expecting it back. Eventhough you're mad at them, your hearts knows if you were to yell at them , they'll feel hurt as well. so as to make it single-handed , you let yourself feel the pain and not them though to endure such pain, we're making ourselves suffer. It's also about how sacrifices should be made , just for that person. willingly and sincerely , that's what love is all about. To trust him/her with all your life, you know he/she won't hurt you that much. Keeping each other smiling eventhough hard times may come along."

yours truly,

♥ LALA, herself ♥

2009-09-06T03:20:00.000+08:00

ALESANA

EYES SET TO KILL

IN LOVE ! currently, i'm deeply in love with this two ROCK band ! sorry A7X , they're stealing me away from you . i know it's heartbreaking because they're stealing away one of your fan, create more nice rock songs and gain me back will ya ? HAHA!

it's awesome how they are able to compose songs that can totally relate to us. i find their 'screamos' UNIQUE and different than usual . infact, they are unique but yet to be well-known. i dont know why . their songs are mostly addictive . most of them is about 'LOVE' , in a hardrock way . cool right? i know ! when i'm angry, i'll listen to them. when i'm sad, i'll listen to them. even when i'm effin' happy, i'll still listen to them . i'm a HARDROCK freak , not really . haha ! i'm crazy for them ! CRAZY ! eventhough some of them dont look GOOD, but they're HOT , in a hardrock way . LOL ! such cool people, must not go to waste ! i'll have to end it here then, if not i'll go $@$@#$@%@%@#$@$ !

must continue texting pusshead ^.^

2009-09-05T02:37:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THAT 'USED-TO-BE FAT' BOY !

Life wouldnt be this awesome if you werent around . you've been there throughout the day i just got to know you and till now, you're still here. you're always there for me, brightening my day , fixing a smile on my face and makes me go "OOHLALA". you dont know how LUCKY i feel when you're around . there's never a time when we'll get angry at each other and use all those vulgarities and say harsh things about each other. we never wanted things like that to happen, so i guess it will never happen in the future, i hope. we argued alot before, but strange enough, we're not drifting apart even the slightest bit. we're getting closer each time we argue . what else, we have alot in common. "SEBOK ONLY !" imagine life without you, i guess i'll still be stucked in my past . thanks to you, you dragged me away . you came into my life, and i appreciate you for doing so . when i'm down, you'll cheer me up. when i'm mad, you'll chill me down. it's sweet of you to treat me in such a way . it's rare to find someone else who are like you , because there's not alot more left . so, better dont change your attitude alright . no more casanova life . i'm not gonna regret having you around, lingering inside my life because somehow, you're special . i dont know why, but you are to me . you entertained my nonsense eventhough i can be irritating most of the time ( i know you're denying it, i don't care! ) , never had the intention to let me down? ( not sure ) . all i want is for you to stay and dont go anywhere else, but here because at the end of the day, when i need a listening ear and someone to soak my tears to, it will be you . i shared so much laughters with you though we can be VERY RANDOM most of the time . you know that i know we're very understanding towards each other. frankly, i never had any intention to hurt you . so trust me because i trust you . one day , if one of us will have to leave, i'll cherish and treasure every moment we once had . i hope you can stay <3

kemunculanmu dalam hidupku akan ku amat hargai,

dirimu akan ku percayai,

janji kepadaku yang kau takkan pergi melarikan diri.

kerna ku inginkan kau disisi.

2009-09-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

sentiasa menanti ketibaanmu
sendiriku menagih nafas dirimu
namun kau memungkiri melangkah pergi
selama-lamanya..

wahai cinta dengarkanlah
rintihanku yang ku rasa
ku berserah tuk berpisah..

(chorus)
mampukah diriku menempuh segala untukmu
biar pun ku tersiksa menitis air mata
bawalah jiwaku agar ia di sisimu
cinta..

belahan jiwa ini tiada yang tahu
seribu janji-janji mengukir hidupku
relaku menunggumu walau bertahun
tuk kita bersama..

wahai cinta dengarkanlah
rintihanku yang ku rasa
ku berserah tuk berpisah..

(chorus)
mampukah diriku menempuh segala untukmu
biar pun ku tersiksa menitis air mata
bawalah jiwaku agar ia di sisimu
cinta..

ku berserah
cinta yang ku diberi(sayang)
ku kan setia menanti..

(chorus)
mampukah diriku menempuh segala untukmu
biar pun ku tersiksa menitis air mata
bawalah jiwaku agar ia di sisimu
cinta ..

2009-09-02T17:33:00.000+08:00

i'm stucked. dont ask why or what. i just am . in between. i dont know which direction to turn to . i never had any intention to hurt anyone. even if i turn to any one of the direction, i'll hurt the other. so you see, it's no use if i were to choose which path to head to . it will still give me the same result . i'm afraid, afraid it might be me . who'll get hurt in the end . this time round, i dont wanna run away. i wanna stay and finish where i started . in the end, either one decision has to be made . i cant run away just like that. there's no way i'm gonna lose this chance . it's just so confusing to think about it. it gives me such a great headache . it's up to me to choose one way or leave . i'm guilty, felt that things will go worst if decision were to be made now . it's funny how you are able to cry so hard over a littlest thing but yet FEEL SO HURT deep inside. i'm surprised by the way i was treated. your words, haunts me till now. i kept asking myself questions. i dont wanna get too serious because i dont wanna fool around with my feelings anymore. i'd lied to myself before and it hurts so much. i dont wanna repeat it ever again. i couldnt possibly force my heart to open for anyone right now. scars are left behind, unhealed. it tickles me when i thought of 'your heart was scarred by the past but yet you're not able to trust th' next to heal it' . a fact , possible ? i dont know. having a crush on someone brings you down, sometimes. things that you dont ever expect turn out to be a reality. heartbreaking, isnt it? yes, i know. i hope things will get better for me someday .

2009-08-31T16:04:00.000+08:00

ARENT YOU ANGRY, WHEN SOMEONE YOU USED TO OR STILL CRUSHING ON, LIKES YOUR OWN BLOODY GOD DAMN FRIEND ?! i know ! i cant blame her. i cant blame my own fxcking friend. she's not at fault . i cant be bothered but still, it hurts . it does, it just does. dont ask me why. i'm so angry, so mad, so tensed, sooooooooo BOILED ! how am i suppose to face him every fxcking day in school ? i hate everything about him NOW. i dont wanna see his fxcking face nor hear his stupid name ever again ! i feel like ergh ! kick him, punch him, screw him, slap him, smack him, EVERYTHING ! i gave him a cold shoulder , he didnt notice it. i hate you, fucker ! serious fuck. you want to know about her, go ask her your FXCKINGSELF ! not me, i aint her fxcking informer alright . no more crushes but yet, i'm able to feel the pain. pfft ! stupid . being in LOVE is so not COOL ! not cool anymore. no, never, NONONONO! i wanna runaway from this nightmare. forget everything & stop crushing. pleaseeeee STOP ! i dont like where any of this is going. never does. are you trying to make me JEALOUS somehow? screw you pretty awesomely hard because sorry , i dont like you anymore. you're just a tiny little piece of CRAP or shall i say it properly, SHIT ! get lost from my mind, my head, my LIFE ! for once, do me a pretty favor and SCREW OFF ! i'm not jealous, i DISLIKE . may you ROT in life alright. & stop giving me compliments because you're not making me feel any BETTER. you make me feel so FXCKED UP ! fuckerfuckerfucker. i'm not interested in your stupid dumbfxck sweet talks okay ? do it to her or your GIRLFRIEND but not me. DONT EVER ! i pity your girlfriend uh. she get this kind of petty boyfriend who doesnt even bother about his own girlfriend. OH, NO ! what kind of a boyfriend is this ? opps, SUCHA PETTY ! if you were an ant, i'll step on you hard and you'll be dead long ago!

thank you very much. looks like i wont bother about you anymore. i dont like you no more. NOPES, NO, NEVER EVER AGAIN =D so now, LET'S BE FRIENDS . yay! _l_ mother fucker shit.

2009-08-29T20:06:00.000+08:00

ever wonder what's love? i dont even know myself. is it appreciating your partner or show him/her off ? EGO? i dont understand. i dont know, i dont care, i dont want to know at all. every single thing you did, doesnt seem enough for your partner. what's there to be done to let the other appreciate you? i dont know. is it giving your partner the permission to break your heart and run far away then? or is it giving your partner his/her satisfaction? why are we often hurt by others ? are we being too nice or are we keeping what we truly feel from them? second chances, doesnt seem enough for any of you huh? things like this is what i contemplated. now i know, leading your life solo is much more better than having someone by your side. yes, you'll be lonely, but atleast you are able to stay away from those who've hurt you again and again. whom, who made your tears drip one by one. whom, who makes you suffer and keeps the agony deep in. whom, who scarred your heart and leave an unhealed wound. whom, who makes you afraid to fall in love ever again. c'mon, being afraid isnt a best thing. what past is past. you still have the future to lead properly, forgetting about the past. moving on, dont ever give a damn.

someday, someone else will enter your life and heal that wound.

so dont you worry at all, life sucks because that's LIFE(:

now lead your life to the fullest, enjoy every moment, give your best.

when you're alone, doesnt mean no one cares.

that's what i believe in.

because,

i know i'm not alone .

friends, bestfriends, families.

especially your siblings.

they're always here.

be it now or later,

be it alive or dead,

they will always be here.

to support you in every motion.

understand you.

appreciate you.

lastly, love you.

so let's FUCK LOVE and KISS LIFE !

it takes time to find the right person. sometimes THAT person could be just right infront of your eyes but yet we doesnt seem to realise. so start appreciating the ones around you and screw those who ruined and made your life a misery before. i have a freedom of my own now, but one by one keeps attacking me. they tried to open the door to my heart. i dont know, i dont want. atleast, not now. they can be very sweet most of the time, very mean the next moment, but i know they're all nice-hearted . heh. i need to get to know them better before getting myself into any serious relationship, but before that, FXCK LOVE, again. it's gonna be hard to capture my heart now. so prepare yourself and join the WAR !

my life is not meaningless, never is.

stay where you are, dream what you wanna be.

you're pushing me out,
you're pushing me when all i do is not enough,

all i do is not enough for you.

aim : be single for a year .

2009-08-28T20:56:00.000+08:00

SCREW YOU !!!!!! SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!!SCREW YOU !!!!!! HARD ! erghhhh !

KHAIRULNIZAM BIN ZAKARIA !!!!
thanks alot alot okayyyyyyyyyy .
you've reached my last nerve .
SCREW YOU REALLLLLLLLYYYYYY HARDDDDDDDD, FXCKER !
STUPID !! STUPID !! STUPID !!

swore i'm never gonna help you no more with your bloody problem w whoever uh okay . i wasted my whole time helping you all these while but this is what i get in return uh kan ? thanks sangat2 ! a simple request seems so hard for you to do. i really appreciate it and may you ROT alright ! =D and yeah, dont come looking for me again lah. go solve your stupid problem that you're gonna face in your stupid life by yourself. i waste my fxcking time helping this kind of unappreciative & pathetic people. you're OLDER ( much more mature? i dont think so )than me yet attitude like one @#$@##@$@@# !!!! erghhhhhhhhhh ! i'm not sulking, i'm just MAD at you for not being able to do such a simple request . _l_ er .

2009-08-25T19:38:00.000+08:00

forget about the AWAK ! moving on .. i finally can STOP liking guys. pfft ! i dont know what got into me these few days. in love in love in love, pffffft ! i guess i've moved on and dont wanna see myself suffer or even hurt myself when the other party did nothing wrong. goooooosh, how silly . LALA have decided to stop having crushes on guys because she dont find it worth no more. YAY ! too bad for those of you eh (x the AWAK was kinda useless actually. such a sweet talker (mother fucker?) man./ ! what the hell right? screw that guy up, down, left, right, diagonal, horizontal and vertical lahhh ! LOL. BOYS. i've known them too well already. woah, lucky me. luckily i didnt totally fell in love with the AWAK. if not, can go $@#%$#$$%^$#$#@!@#@#%% ! haha. stupid lah ! i dont find LOVE that special anymore for now. im'ma go concentrate on my ALI AKBAR from now on =D wooooots, I LOVE HIM ! xD && it feels fxcking GREAT to help a friend w her crush. Fbby, GOOD LUCK !

2009-08-23T04:24:00.000+08:00

early morning chatted with:

danial'crazyred,
rusydi'apek,
fairuz'matlex,
rian'reeant
raffiq'feeq

individual, not group convo. haha(x i'm not what you think i am okaaaaay. pfft./ friends =D besides, they're all single. can go crazy uh chat with 5 of them. haiyoo ! nah, actually i was the one that made them go crazy but rusydi was the other way round. he made me go crazy by mengumpat pasal ***** and her babats and nenek keropok all that stuffs. haha ! i chatted with reeant the longest till now =D and he's sweet man ! he wanted to take a short nap and i'm okay with it but he changed his mind because he dont want to leave me alone . haha! forced him but he's stubborn. finefine. okay, im'ma go have my SAHUR now =D && danial naughty ! tak puasa. tsk3 ! eh apek, cannot maki anymore. we'll maki after buka okay? LOL ! my reeanthandsome ask me to eat. byebye!

2009-08-22T22:33:00.000+08:00

This song really motivates me not to give up easily. Phliq, hopefully i can meet you one day okay =D haha! there's alot of things i wanna say to you !

i'm always here for you but as you can see, i dont wanna be the third party. who knows your girlfriend will think otherwise ? so i'm expecting you to look for me when you're facing obstacles. remember what you said? when you're having problems, you'll look for me. i'm depending on those words. i wanna be the girl who you can always depend on when you're feeling down and when tears started rolling down, the girl who is willing to lend her shoulder and let you soak your tears on her. i know i'm hurting myself right now with all this kind of stupid feelings. but, what to do ? it's staying. i love my LIFE but not my LOVE LIFE ! haha.

2009-08-22T21:58:00.000+08:00

i cant write down how i truly feel for you. so here's a video for you, boy.
it's just so hard to let go. if only there was someone else, that could steal me away from you and capture my stubborn heart. wish i could be the one to give you directions into my heart, but i think it's too late to do so now. she captured your heart first and you went on her path. i dont wanna be the third party. i gave so many hints yet you're dumb enough to not even notice it. everytime i saw you in school, i'll smile but deep inside me , i'm hurting like hell. dont you know that? of course you dont, because i dont show it. i never wanted to. you can never make me stop loving you, boy. you'll have to accept the fact.

2009-08-21T22:44:00.001+08:00

wouldnt it be nice, if you appear right infront of me the moment i said i wanted to give up and you started to express your feelings for me? heh, dream on(: guess i'll have to be really patient huh? yeah. i wanna keep on trying till you know how much you really mean to me. i dont wanna lose you, please. it's just a sudden feeling. i started to care and love you out of a sudden, without a reason. hidden reasons, i guess? i dont know. hopefully one day i get to know what are those reasons that made me fall in love with you. you're someone else's now.. i dont wanna ruin anything, so please make me move on.. dont worry, i never had any intention to break you and her apart.. pretend you dont know me, it would be nice.. i'm sorry if what i'm doing will or might affect your relationship. if a friend can wait for a year, why cant i ? =D but when there's someone else who's trying to get me, i'm gonna think twice and give him a chance.. but i will still wait for you, till i find someone meant to be truly mine.. but i guess, is it you? i dont know.. PATIENCE ! no one is giving up yet at this point of time. i'mma try really hard now.

* 3rd post for the day =DD

2009-08-21T22:13:00.001+08:00

for once in my life, i love someone sincerely with my whole heart despite me not knowing that person that well but that love is hurting me right now because i kept running away from myself. i never wanted to understand my own feeling. i wasnt being true to myself. i'm stubborn & selfish. i wanna run away, far enough to really be able to let you go. all these while, i've been lying to myself about how i feel. i said i had a crush on someone else but my love for you hasnt and never wanted to fade. i hate how much i love you and how painful it feels to know someone you love, didnt bother to return back the favor. okay, so i dont have the right to say that because he doesnt know anything yet. yeah, he doesnt even know a single thing about what i felt. c'mon i didnt even try my luck, but .. i know i wasnt given any chance to .. to be with you for once. even if i wait, what's the point? when will you ever realise? haish. i wasnt ready to let go, not even the slightest bit, but i pretended i did. it's stupid, really.. my heart ache each time i saw you eventhough i might be smiling and laughing on the outside. i always wanted someone to understand me, someone to be there for me, willingly. i guess, my heart couldnt take it anymore. i guess, i'm gonna try again and again till the day i really fall on my knees and started crying. i'll try to let go if i really had to, really let go and stop lying to myself. i dont wanna give up yet.

*wrote this on 21 August 2009 while i was crying.. in school(:

SCREW YOU 911/364 ! ): can i depend on 254 or 7426 now ? heart aches..

2009-08-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

i dont know what else to do because everything i did seems so wrong. i'm having doubts on whether to wait for you or not. it's heart breaking to know someone you're starting to love, talks about someone else or infact 'another girl' .. i'm not jealous, i dislike it. i dont think i'm ready to let go, because i have yet to try my luck. if you want me to stop bothering you, tell me off. eventhough you insisted me to stay, i just couldnt continue watching myself suffering like this. somehow, i know it will hurt me but atleast, i can go on with my life and not wait for someone whom is not worth to wait. i dont know if fate will always be by my side, but i'm trying quite hard now to capture your heart and mend every wound that is left behind by the past. i just cant let go eventhough everyone knew how much i wanted to. your presence still lingers around me whenever i tried to forget about you. yes, i've cried. cried alot of times, just for you. how pathetic can that be? thinking of you makes my heart ache each time. when i saw you, i pretended as if nothing's wrong.. till when can you realise? that i am the girl who have been there for you throughout your day to guide you.. i wish you knew how exactly i feel right now. i'm just afraid i might look like a fool when the truth is out. now i know, having crushes and loving someone can actually hurt you this bad despite that person not knowing how you truly feels. it's a scary feeling.. where did i go wrong? haish. wondering if you would ever realise because by the time you realize how much you care for me, i might be with another guy who would/could actually understand what i felt. i'm not desperate, i just want you to realise it before it's too late.

911 <3

2009-08-16T13:03:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY.

Koji chatted w me because Clarissa got issues. irritating la./ pfft! both of them argued and all i did was ask them to 'SHUT UP' and 'TALK ON MONDAY' bleaaaaaaaaaah! i cant do anything else because they're stubborn peepos. hope i can come to school tomorrow, to look out for them incase they argue again. haiyerrr! after all those classmates arguement, being a random person, i chatted with Ybby. so jyeah, she argued with her boyfriend. talked to her about boys and her boyfriend. we get along pretty well huh. she told me stuffs about what's making their relationship rocky. out of nowhere, her boyfriend chatted with me and asked me stuffs. he asked me for a favor and that is to help him find a solution so both of them can SMILE =D i came out with a solution and FINALLY, they're smooth again(: i was so busy helping them that i replied Jeremiah a little bit late. sorry BF! haha. oh, chatted with my dear SOTONG also. he's so irritating la./so blur! but sayaaaaaaaaaaang dier la =D it's so awesome to chat with BF & dear sotong =D

&& guess what, her boyfriend said this to me
''i cant believe im saying this but your boyf's gonna be a lucky guy''
"you're the sweetest. cant believe im saying this again"

on the phone/

Ybby: LALA's boyfriend's very lucky
Kcicak: i told her the exact same thing!

i got PROVE ! haha.

Kcicak, even my dear sotong agreed on what you said. thanks aye! =D
you're one lucky dude to have Ybby around./ hopefully my cutest couple wont argue like this no more alright. im'ma be there for you both whenever needed. let's pray this time my hope wont let me down because i'm hoping for Ybby & Kcicak to last pretty awesomely long and no, i wont be surprised in the future if they does. im'ma be happy for them even after the grim captures my soul. LALA is always here for anyone/everyone!
Ybby & Kcicak alwayyyyyyyys! ILYBOTH! =D

I CANT UPLOAD IMAGES(the convo)! pfft./ nevermind. next time jyeahhhhhh.